I felt pretty icky early this a.m. After meditating I felt better and also I noticed that my new found energy was unimpaired. It’s not so much new energy as directed energy I guess. Anyway I’ve been getting alot more done. Mr. McClinton came to the house to talk about a laundromat. He sells whirpool equipment + has been talking to Dick about starting a new business instead of the one in the University Plaza. He weighs 367 lbs and is in sad physical shape although a nice man + a straight guy. Shirley came + seemed to think a new place might be the answer. Mr. M is going to look into a location at Lucky’s on Maryland Pkwy for us. Dick left early for his noon appt with Hartley Last night he had finished the 2nd bottle all by himself during the night. He’s never done that before I went over to Wonderworld to see Daisy and play the slot machine (briefly) then went to the Boulevard + got some fried chicken and picked up our turkey. The woman who gave it to me was very funny. Mopping her face + neck all the time she gave me instructions. They’d been cooking turkeys since 2 am this morning!! I went to see Mr. Chan + explained about tomorrow although I lied + said friends from out of town were coming. I told him I’d written Doris + said I’d come back before I went to L.A. Went to Alice’s + we played Spite’n malice. Dick called + fooled her again (the Rev Williams,” this time.) I went home + unloaded the turkey + we talked. Dr. Hartley wants to see me so I asked Dick to set up an appt as soon as possible. I went to my 4th + last (for a while) session. We listened to a 3rd tape by the Maharishi + I bought a copy of “tranquillity without pills” – I like everyone there so much. Called Dick from Panorama + he put on the fried chicken. Pleasant evening – no booze and we played a little yahtzee after + went in the pool.
I called Wendy fairly early. She’d gone back to sleep yesterday (on the pool table at the Day Dream!!) Where she was escaping Denny but that had worked out all right. Said she’d be over today. I went to the Sahara for a while and lost again. I think I’m testing something in me with TM and gambling There is one difference but small so far and that is desperation has gone, I believe. I meditated in the library this morning + that seems like a good place. I took the sample we chose to George + Pat + went to the Valley Bank + deposited Les’ check for $700 in our joint acct with $100 out for cash. Bought a few groceries + came home. The place looks great. Wendy had gone. Dick had been drinking again and again decided not to go but he called Ivan at my request and I guess Ivan left the door open in a good way. Dick has decided to see Dr. Hartley again and I guess that’s very good news. I went for my 3rd session + tonight Beverly talked about [crossed out letters] how going over or “bringing out” stresses + talking about them was only reimplanting them deep down in our nervous systems. She said “that’s why psychiatry has the wrong technique sometimes although the right aim.” I talked with Ivan after + he said he thought it was a good move that Dick was seeking help + that maybe he just wasn’t ready yet. I called Dick from Panorama + he said he had an appt with Hartley tomorrow + asked me to bring a bottle of wine. Another of our “last bottles” I did though. We had steaks for dinner + the wine + talked + then sent out for another bottle except that Dick got two more. We finished one + left the other. The second didn’t taste good at all.
Dick started the George’s pool – complications with the dig.
I called the Hospital, talked with Jean Mitchell + uninvited Mr. Chan
After good night’s sleep we both awoke + we meditated in bed Oddly I didn’t do very well as there was no alarm or timer set. It seemed to inhibit me. Later after Dick left the house I tried again with the timer set in the other room That time it worked. I did some laundry, went to Chicago Title to sign papers, mailed letter to Doris Louie. Played some 21 at the Tropicana, won $100 and then lost it at the Sahara Went to George + Pat Garrett’s + picked out some chairs. They let me take some upholstery samples home with me. Went to the Valley Bank + deposited $500.00 in the Co. acct (Mario’s money) and the Bank of Nevada + put $100 in my acct. Bought vitamins at the Savon and took sheets to Steiner’s. Wendy was supposed to come today + I’d left the key under the mat but she didn’t make it. Dick had been drinking when I got home and said he didn’t want to go tonight I tried to persuade him and then I got upset + angry and said “Aren’t you ever going to do anything?” But I apologized slightly and said I was going anyway, that I felt it was very important and I wanted to go. So I did. Beverly told me we should have mentioned the drinking and I thought it was up to Dick either way to mention As we talked I just sat with tears rolling down my face Two others, Norman + Beverly came in + we all listened to a tape of the Maharishi and then we meditated. My stomach rumbled + after about 10 minutes or so my eyes flew open and I couldn’t seem to get back. I spoke with Ivan + cried some more but less it seemed. Came home + fixed liver – didn’t get it well done enough + Dick ate almost none. He told me he’d been “disturbed + confused” by the meditating. I told him I thought it might be the combination w/ the wine. He said he’d come tomorrow
Called Daddy early + he said Lucille Brown had written Jim about the $100
I wrote Doris Louie today – quite a long letter Typed poems (crisp ma simms). We ate a big breakfast around 10:30 and then didn’t eat again although I drank alot of coffee – which I shouldn’t have (right up to meditation at least.) Ed came over with his 2 runaway boys + Dick heated the pool but it never got hot enough. We went by the main post office + mailed cards w/checks to Timmy, Leon, Margie, The Hennings etc. Then to the Cannon’s house on Exposition with our white handkerchiefs, fruit + flowers Their son met us at the door. Very self possessed (about 14) and took the offerings + gave us a form to fill out. I learned I shouldn’t have had coffee from Beverly. She talked to us a bit and then after removing our shoes we went into another room with her husband Ivan to be initiated. He chanted something in Sanskrit which is a thank you to Guru Dev for the teachings he was handing on + then gave us each our mantra and told us how to meditate. We sat there and first after getting started Dick suddenly “woke up” said “Punkin I’m awake” and I came out of it too and then we both went back. Nothing seemingly profound but when Ivan came back we both did feel very refreshed We gave him a check for $125 and came home Minutes later Bobby Clark and one of the children came over Dick met them at the door and said “Come on in, but you should have called first” – and I was pleasant as I went on fixing dinner + was not thrown into a tizzy. A very unusual + healthy reaction for both of us!!! Dick got Art III a car rental this afternoon before we went out
Called Beverly Cannon of SIMS – Student Internat’l Meditation Society. She suggested we come about 4:00 tomorrow as we need interviews etc before starting. Then for the [crossed out word] initiation ceremony we [crossed out word] are each to bring 3 pieces of sweet fruit (no lemons) 6 flowers and a clean white handkerchief. She explained the symbolic purpose of each (I forget) + said it was a ceremony in which the teachers thanked Guru Dev (the Maharishi’s teacher) for the opportunity of passing on his teachings. Dick looked a little stubborn when I told him this + I told him some Sheriff’s deputy had also been at the lectures + he muttered “he’s probably checking up on them!” – After he left I called Liza + she reassured me + told me a hysterical story of her initiation after a horrible fight with a florist. Also told me a very wide spectrum of people are becoming involved along with some Army General who’s a meditator + introducing it into the Army Drug rehabilitation program. Scott called + we talked a little briefly – his play is opening on the 8th. Oh dear – but we’ll work out something. Went [crossed out word] the store + bought flowers + fruit and some of the same to take Mr. Chan. Had a good visit with him this time. Over an hour. He wants to see his “relatives’ especially Doris + “mama.” I promised to write Doris + see if anything could be worked out. Invited him rather tentatively for Thanksgiving dinner but then Dick hit the roof so I’ll just uninvite him. He didn’t seem terribly enthusiastic to begin with anyway!! I wrote Leon + Timmy with checks + Dick sent Margie a B’day card + I sent her the school money. Also sent rent to Hennings
Morning began with a call from Jack Essinges while we were still in bed,. Asked him to call back in 15 minutes + made coffee + called Shirley (fortunately as she was on her way out + asked her to wait til I could get him to call her. She told me Julia had called her + evidently Jack wanted to come out to go over the books himself (?!) Spoke to him + told him to call Shirley for details – He’s familiar with the laundromat business + thinks it a very good income deal. It would be a good thing if he did come out. The only thing is it would be nice if Julia or Dick Rund who have done so much for me could fly out at my expense for good reason. Wendy came about 9:30 or 10:00 – So good to see her again – we just talked til about 11! [crossed out words] Went to the bank + deposited money from my N.Y. acct to pay for our TM course (it’s $125 for the two of us) Did a few errands + went to the Tropicana + played 21 for a bit. lost $40. Put $100 in the Dion checking acct. Came home – Wendy getting ready to do the kitchen floor. Helped her move out the chairs. Dick went out in the pool. Wendy found an old empty wine bottle behind the curtains in the dressing room of Dick’s office. She left about 5:30 – The place looks great + she’s coming back Monday. Bill Tregoe called to say he’s on Love American Style tonight. We asked him + Leon to come visit in two weeks or 3 – (weekend of Dec. 8th) He’s got another Love American Style coming up. A two day job this time with the possibility of 3. Leon called later + we had a very good talk – told him I was coming to L.A. [crossed out letters] the week of Nov 27th – Dec. 2nd. We watched Bill + thought he was very good. Wish he’d directed it!
Discussed laundromat. Shirley called Julia Mullen who seemed enthusiastic. There’s cash on hand – ($40,000) She’ll talk to Dick Rund + find out what if any tax advantages there will be if we do it before the year is out or pay off a note for $11,000 that we’d have to assume etc. Dick Rund going to get in touch with Shirley. We put the $300 in the company acct. which is getting solvent again. Dick still hast’t gotten the money from Mario but hopes (nay, plans) to tomorrow Wendy called + can come tomorrow. Couldn’t have been a nice surprise.
Incomplete notes on today – It rained + rained hard all day long – many places almost impassible. I went to the showboat + played 21 + Keno + lost. Cashed a check + then another with no trouble at all (they shouldn’t have let me cash the 2nd as I’d lowered my minimum to $50!) I went over to Dave’s office in the late afternoon to pick up our $300 from Pat’s suit. Mary told me Dick had called earlier (or she had called him) so I called from her phone to say I had the money + was on my way home. It rained all night and the sound was nice on the roof. Shirley called to say Dante (owner of the laundromat) turned our offer down flat – then called to say he’d submitted it to his lawyer –
Shirley came over in the a.m. – we discussed the idea of buying the laundromat in the University Plaza. She wants to go over the books first. The guy wants $140,000.00 – $70,000 down + the rest to be paid off at 300 a week – we made out a very rubber check for $2500 (balance in our acct 92.00) for her to show as earnest money and our offer is 40,000 down with 70,000 to be paid off as he wants @ 300 a week. We went to Foxy’s for a very late brunch – didn’t get out til almost 3 o’clock. It was raining hard + I had trouble with the windshield wipers. Went to a gas station + then didn’t know how the hood opened. Finally got everything fixed for a dollar (mostly a matter of tightening screws) Went to the Valley Bank + deposited the $500 bond money in the company acct. (makes up for the N.I.C. check!!) Went to see Mr. Chan very briefly told him I’d been ill which was true (a week ago at least. Home + early dinner then Dick went off to see Mr. + Mrs. George + I went to the University. An exhibit downstairs of student’s art work + I was early enough to look around. Saw a really beautiful bowl for $30.00. It was one I think Mother would have loved. Anyway I put a $15 deposit on it and guess I’ll send it to Hilary as I think it’s too big for us. Tonight’s lecture was very interesting and I tried to take a few notes to tell Dick what I could. The next course in TM starts Sunday and I want to go. Talked with one of the teachers present, a Beverly Cannon + she gave me a card + I took [crossed out letters] questionnaire sheets to fill out. Got home 5 minutes after Dick who has a signed contract from the Georges.. Whee –
Except for feeling rocky, it was a great day. Got up early + washed my hair + put on a court type dress. Simple, sedate etc. As I told Dick I’m beginning to amass a court wardrobe. We drove to Dave’s + ate breakfast at the Hoffbrau House downstairs Went in Dave’s car to court He disappeared. Dick + Pat (both without lawyers) were called + Pat tripped on an attaché case coming up the aisle. Scheduled for 10 o’clock. Tried to find Dave finally did in Court 10 in the Bank of Nevada bldg. Case didn’t come up til after 11. Judge Pavlikowski. Pat’s lawyer submitted Dick’s reply to Pat’s bill charging him with the profit on Mezlino’s pool minus the commission on Nelson’s. Pavlikowski looked surprised “You’re submitting this?” Anyway several conflicting contracts signed by Pat were introduced + I thought it went very well. Also Pat was pleasant which I was very grateful for After we went upstairs + got back the $500 bond that had been posted after the Carpenter business (were interested to see he’d had to put up $500 too) Came home. Dick worked in his office and I typed up Twelve days of Christmas etc. etc. The George’s called + Dick is going tomorrow night to sign the contract Whee! First pool since April or May. Then Dave called to say we’d won the case today. How great. Went to the airport p.o. + mailed off all the letters + bills + ms Home for dinner + then went to the University at 8 to hear the lecture on transcendental meditation. They call it TM. Only lasted an hour and was really fascinating. Interesting assortment of people – large age-range + occupational range I’d guess. Dick as interested as I. Home + bed fairly early
Drunken breakfast in the wee hours and then into bed where we stayed most of the day – getting out only to go into the pool + make love + go to the refrigerator for something cold. Harold Stern called at one point and I called him back later. He thinks he can do something with “Crisp moss” Wants more material – talking in terms of Feb or March Told him I wanted Liza to do the illustrations. Also asked him if he could use some money. He could + we said we’d send him a thousand. (that had been Dick’s idea from the first call on as he said we’ll be paid back in spades when Harold gets off the ground.) Called Liza after + she was delighted at the idea. Thanked her for the bluechip stamp books + told her there was a lecture at the University on transcendental mediation Mon. night Dick had taken it out of the paper. She said it was really the greatest and we should try I told her I’d get the hymns + carols typed up + would send them off ASAP. We watched TV and read + slept and did not drink anything and had a late picnic in bed complete with pickles. We tried to call Izzy + friends at the Hacienda at 4 but no response. Dick told me Izzy told him in a drunken confidence that she’d had an affair with Peter!
Liza said she thought there should be pen + ink sketches for the Crisp Moss Garland
Dick drinking today. I cleaned papers in the kitchen, wrote Daddy + Mr. London (Mrs. L. died) + Ira Zuckerman + Drue. Paid Heron books + Bruce Terminix. Renewed subscription to Horizon, ordered checks from the Bank of New York + our Michels’ plaque. Sent contributions to Sheldon Andelson childrens’ Medical care, the Indian Fund, Internat’l Rescue committee, Epilepsy Foundation, Southwest Indian Fndn, KLVX, Korean Relief, Care + the Environmental Defense fund. The way I knew Dick was drinking was that one of the two bottles of wine that the cab brought Weds. had been filled with water. Then found 2 empties + a half full bottle in his Sales Kit in the office. I was bugged + he hit the ceiling. So I took the other bottle of wine + proceeded to drink it myself. Came to a few decisions one of them being that I’m going to L.A. for a week of interviews. He’s going to drink when I’m here or there so I might as well do something to help myself. Dick came in while I was drinking and I told him what I’d decided. No hostility but a wealth of frustration. I went + got some more wine at the Stop’n go. Izzy called + said she was on her way to Vegas with some friends. By the time they got here we were both drunk. Met them at the Hacienda + blew the N.I.C. check for $300.00 Really wonderful. Drove around looking for the Showboat with Izzy’s friends while She + Dick picked up some more wine at TJ’s + booze.
Got up today. Throat still a little sore but nothing like Weds. Went to Wonder World + played slot machines. Took my direction book to Daisy (crocheting) but she couldn’t really figure much while she was working. Asked her over at 4:30. Went + played a little 21. Went to store. Called Dick + told him Daisy was coming + asked if we could invite her to dinner – Fine. She ripped out almost all of both starts. (all, actually of one) + got me started correctly. We had steaks for dinner Dick went in the livingroom to watch TV. Fell asleep with cigarette in his hand (learned later he’d been drinking but didn’t know for sure then.) Daisy left about 9. Nice having her + sometime I want to get her + her husband over to play cards. Val doesn’t drink. Mary called and things are alot better sounding there She’s not coming to Las Vegas after all as they’ve spent money on a new floor in the livingrooom and on their front steps + lawn. Bed pretty early.
Stayed in bed all day. Worked on “Thud Wolf Haze off Crisp Moss” – and finished it. Didn’t go to Breakfast at the Blvd or didn’t call Ann – Mostly a day of didn’ts Did call Daddy + told him my throat had been too sore to talk yesterday. Throat better today. Read Louis Auchincloss’ new book “I come as a thief” – liked it very much
Another day back in bed. Dick called Daddy early + Jim won 3 to one. I read the Old Curiosity Shop most of the day. Betty + Art came by on the way to Betty’s plane. Gave her a cream cheese pie to take home to her daughter Debbie. Told them about Art III’s compliment on Sunday + we all laughed. Got a cute Thank you note from Larry for his birthday check and a letter from Liza with about 5 blue chip stamp books! Wow. She’s started meditating – transcendental meditation – was doing a paper on drugs for a sociology class and discovered that it’s been one of the few successful things in combating drugs. Says its really marvelous. I got all excited by her letter + am anxious to do something for us. Also anxious to get back to work with Liza on “Knight Beef or Crisp Moss” I’ve been working on Carols (+Crisp Ma Simms) off + on these past few weeks and have almost four more. Started on 12 days of Xmas today. Finished the Old Curiosity Shop + loved it. Dick was coming to bed + then called a cab who delivered 2 bottles of wine. I caught him and he put them in the cupboard + came to bed. I guess he’d been drinking off + on all day but I hadn’t really noticed as I was feeling so rotten.