Sent – “Welcome Home” flowers to Daddy. Called University for reservations + was told we didn’t need them. Called Irene – no answer. Called Child Haven to say I’d be in tomorrow. Crocheted 2 more strips together – 1 + 2 _ + 2 + 3. Went over to have lunch with Elaine about noon. Funny time. Ate at the Flame pit. Horrendous story of lady who’d ordered the $750.00 edition of Alice in Wonderland with the Dali illustrations. The book was Lost by the airlines. Ouch. Left her with folder of correspondence. Too dreary to think of. Bought a glorious stack of books at their sale. Some really good ones. Went to Wonder World + played a little + bought some groceries. Home. Had tried to get copy of Antigone but without luck. Told Dick he didn’t have to go + he was upset. (Poor dear was alot more upset after he went.) We had dinner at a new place named Zorba the Greek. Good. Thence to the University for 2 hours of boredom. The Trelean de Paris do their stuff in a classical-reading style. Long speeches + for Dick must have been incredibly dull. I missed alot myself – Reception after very uncomfortable + we left after about 10 minutes. Never did meet Cecile Rousseau. Went to Le Bistro bar + talked with the chef (Serge Velut) + a buddy who’s an asst. chef at the Tropicana – Daniel Rafanel. Stayed til [crossed out letters] 1:30 or so – Dick insisting he was in good shape for work. Had message from Annie so called as we thought it might be urgent. Not in the least. Just wanted to say thanks for the Candy gram – when I told her we’d been to a French play she told me, “You owe Dick a great deal!”
Took 2:05 flight to Burbank. Called [crossed out word] General Service + don’t have to go in til tomorrow. Checked in at Roosevelt Hotel Made a few calls – The Browns who still don’t have a stove, Bill + Leon. We called Room service + had some fruit + cheese + coffee + a split of wine sent up. napped + dressed + took off for Leons for dinner. Picked him up at his office. Cold cuts which was perfect. Two loaves of bread, a blueberry pie, a sweater + a box of cookies went with us to the theatre “Blythe Spirit” a disappointment but very hard to say where the fault lay. Was very disappointed in Howard Morton who can be so brilliant. Zsa-Zsa looked lovely but of course she’s the Main problem #1! The play is dated + the proscenium is in the way. We had drinks with Bill after + talked a little about how one’s theatrical perspective changes without one’s even noticing. odd. Went back to the hotel + had 2 more drinks + danced. Bed at two which wasn’t too bright with an 8:15 call.
Paid a few bills –
Woke at 6:30 Slept again til 8. Was up when Lyle came to wake me + scared him silly. We went + woke Jimmy + had breakfast again with our little lady. John Howard Lawson spoke after breakfast. I called Mather before listening. Good speaker + very warm -kindman. Talked in terms of committment. Looking for a synthesis of the Brechtian epic + Living newspaper presentation. Sets enormously high standards. After his talk drifted over to Rose 12 to work. [crossed out letters] Jimmy joined me + I ended up cuing him again. Should have been firmer less frantic about needing to work by myself a bit. Instead just got uptight. Left lunch to go back to work + pasted + cut + put together the fresh script. Was miserable during afternoon rehearsal. Jimmy making token use of his script – I quite denpendent on it. A few things were all right. I cried a few stupid tears in the ladies’ room. Back to cabins at 4:30 – Took a nap after looking over script again. Bathed + dressed. Have a sore throat + can’t tell whether or not it’s psychosomatic. Drink before dinner. Joined by Mather + Winnie who did nothing all day. No swimming, no walking, boating. Nothing. Oh dear. Nice dinner but I left before it was really over. Read through script once more – went over to the main building fortified with cough drops. Throat quite bad. Lyle lecture went well – so did the reading. I really took off in “Our Town” could feel it happen. Got all the others too – despite a flub or two in the Joan Levy “Bury the Dead” scene. Was later told I had “magic” – I really “reached” them. blah blah blah. All nice. Mather + Winnie liked it. Left after 2 drinks. I sat around + drank then went on to a party at Rose 11 with a Seymour someone. Got drunk like an idiot. Good time but throat sore as hell.
Up about 8. Wrote diary. Called Pat Walker + will have to arrange a new contract there for Winnie – minimum of 40 hours but I can take the left over sessions. Rae here at 10:30. Gave her Lyle’s paper to type. She’s free for a while. This is her vacation!! Went shopping. Got Winnie an earplug for her radio. Bought steak + chicken + vegetables at Safeway. Had Fruit Salad (“nothing else”) for lunch. Went to Pat Walkers at one. Made arrangements. Went to May Co. + bought wool + moth stuff. Came back. Winnie through at 2:30. Will be going 5 days a week for an hour session each day. Seemed to like it + seemed enthusiastic. Went to post-office in Held bldg + mailed Mss to Celeste. Went to second hand book store + bought “The Robe” for Winnie. Also found copy of “Saturday Island” – Whee! + “The Lost Prince,” “Peter Abelard” and a couple of others I wanted + a couple on Winnie’s list. Home at 4 and took nap. Slept like a log. Letters from Dick Kneeland + Scotty and Social Security info from Mary re Millie. Fixed steak for Mary P, Winnie + me. Winnie fixed salad. Good meal. Music Center at 8:30 – good seats + liked Cabaret even better. Mary P liked it + so did Winnie. After Annie, Moose + Fritz came to the house + so did Signe. (I left Mary Parker to ride with her + pilot.) In Signe’s [crossed out word] Dressing room an incredibly dreary lady appeared. Had been Sig’s stand in in a Demille movie “Of course I never made a name for myself” – (that was the clue) she brought up Signe’s husband, her son (“You lost him, didn’t you”) Couldn’t believe I was hearing it. Poor Signe – We had a good time at the house + Signe stayed until 2 am. Talked about a “debt to a talent” – I dig that.
Puttered around all day – accomplished nothing. Timmy called around 10 o’clock! His cab didn’t come! He changed reservations to tomorrow, called Jo etc. + invited Queenie Leonard to dinner. I offerd to drive him to the airport tomorrow but was relieved when he found somebody at the bldg. to do it I sent some money to Care and to the Salvation Army. Started a biography Carry Nation called “Vessell of Wrath” – extremely entertaining reading. Went Shopping at Safeway and got strawberries, juice, frozen vegetables etc. to take to Leons. Mary Parker + I drove over at six. Leon not there when we arrived, his cleaning lady was just leaving. Told us through the door that she’d let us in as soon as she got into her “street clothes”.!! Leon then appeared. We fixed the dinner in no time flat. Had a drink or two first. Got to the Las Palmas at 10 or so. Mary Cleveland waiting. Lots of people. Leon’s “family” – Lee Garms, Lane Allen + date, Dorothy, Dick Angarola, The Doney’s, Lym Von Kirsten, Val de Vargas, Caro Jones – etc. etc. Production just ghastly. Tastelessly directed + poorly acted. Awful. Mary C. left after first play and Mary P + I watched her wistfully. Champagne served in dixie cups after. Mary P + I went next door for a beer where Leon later joined us. Took him home + got back to the house at 1:30. I found the evening profoundly depressing. And realized what an ass I’ve been not to get people out to see me in any old thing. Was carefully non-committal about my feelings with Leon.
Equity is on strike and “Cabaret” and “I do, I do” are both closed tonight.
(Sent Mary flowers for her poem reading out in the Valley)
Up about 9 – Typed on the old Bleecker St. dialogue for Bob Iverson. Washed hair, shaved legs etc. Went out to the Palisades at noon. Appt at 12:30. Gave Bob a copy of “The Lion is Busy.” We talked a very little about the writing he’d taken home last week. He read “Muchacha” in office time. Said “This must have been very painful.” Yeah. Only thing is it seems to me that to anyone who pays much attention to things the whole process of living is extremely painful including happiness Blah. Blah. Blah. Went afterward to a place called the “Weathervane” and bought a good shirtwaist dress for commercials. Next stop Bullocks where I got a pair of bone shoes and then Paul’s shoestore on Alvarado where I got some navy blue shoes and a pr. of black patent leather shoes. Home. Mary Parker had had a long + somewhat unsettling letter from Marge Scanlon who wants the green painting – “A man taught us this game” – no mention of price. I turned up the hem on my new dress. Had a message from Isabell that she was leaving for New York in the morning. Called her but without success. Went off to 5 o’clock appt. on Sunset Blvd. Connie Owens. Was delayed by traffic accident on Melrose + Fairfax. Odd commercial – “blood stains” – ?? Read well though and made one of the guys laugh. Was too late to pick up Leon’s order at Hugo’s so – Scott had to. Got to Leon’s at 6:30 – He’s having a bad time financially at the moment so I offered to lend him a thousand dollars. He’s already taken me around so much I don’t need to feel any qualms about it at all from that point of view. Lane Allen arrived about 7:20 – in time for dinner. Nice guy. Really liked him. Went to the theatre to see “Enemy, Enemy” (not private ear – that’s on Monday) Lee Garms there – and whole bundle of Leon’s family. Play interesting. John (now “Barry”) Russo playing lead! Sherree North miscast + misdirected. Excellent job by a kid named Richard Dreyfuss. Jerry Katz the manager. Went back to Leon’s after with Lane Allen + stayed til 1:30. I thoroughly enjoyed myself. Have a 10:30 appt with Leon tomorrow. I had my dates mixed up + let Jimmy’s birthday go by!
Up at 7:30 – wrote Bill a note with check for $60 to be returned if not delivered in 10 days. Called Norman Poser to wish him Happy Birthday. Am so glad I did as he was delighted. In his 2nd day on a new job with the American Stock Exchange. Had been about to write him + Miriam to explain my lack of time in N.Y. when calling occurred to me. Called Newcomb but couldn’t get him before I left to pick up Bess + have steam + massage. Stopped on the way home for groceries + laundry + cleaning. Washed my car windows + hosed down the mats in the patio. Newcomb called me – nice chat. I lay in the sun for a bit but the heat was too much. [crossed out letters] Lyle called + wants me to do a reading for the U.C.L.A. seminar at Lake Arrowhead on July 31st. (Same thing I didn’t do in the fall) Theatre of the 30’s – “Idiot’s Delight” – Winterset. Our Town. Golden Boy. Bury the Dead etc. Said I’d be delighted. Took nap. Had letter from Mrs. Parr about paying me back money Oh hell. Must write + tell that Celeste has done it. Called Estelle + am having dinner with her tomorrow night. Drove out to Palisades armed with letters. Bob spent the whole session reading them. I asked if he’d be interested in seeing things I’d written creatively and he said yes, very. The only trouble is we don’t get much chance to talk. However I think it’s more than worthwhile. On the way back in the car I went over in my head alot of my writings + maybe a pattern does emerge – a sort of victim who deserves what happens? Guilts – I don’t know. Stopped at Schwab’s + picked up a mystery – went to Leon’s. Nice supper. Drove to town. Got there just after the opening number. Great seats. Fascinating show – especially the over all production – more so than the subplots. Signe looks great – She + Leon got along beautifully. They drove to the Fogcutters together. Annie + I in my car + Joe + Jay Jacobsen who’d come up for the [crossed out letters] day from Vegas. Nice evening Took Leon home at 10:30. Stopped to pick up beer on the way some – Big yelling match going on. Had a beer with Mary + Paul + funny [crossed out word] talk – “Bi-sexual?” Bed at three-thirty
Up around 9:30 – Seem to have alot of sleeping to catch up on. Most of the morning spent in phone calls. Called Bill who said he wasn’t going to direct “Cuckoo.” That was all I needed to hear. Told him I wouldn’t do it either. Also told him I’d get Leon to use as an excuse. We chatted a while + then I called Leon who was delighted to act as the heavy as he didn’t want me to do it in the first place. Called Benito and had to listen to part of a lecture on responsibility. I didn’t tell him I already knew Bob + Sherri weren’t going to do it. I just told him that was that + then hung up. Called Bill back + had to ask the service to let me ring through as I knew he was there. (He’d thought it was Benito) He was also relieved . Called Magda but she wasn’t in. Spoke with Timmy + made a date for Monday night. Spoke with Sharon Erdman + am going over there tomorrow to discuss the teaching thing. Called Chuck Neighbors at the Beverly Crests he’d checked out. Spoke with Mary – nothing new there. James coming out soon. Didn’t go out until about four when I went over to see Dr. Ware at the Good Samaritan. We had a very nice visit and he looks extremely well. Came back about 5:30. Paul’s Aunt Marie de Rose here – a peppy little [crossed out letter] lady of 71. Really a charmer. I spent alot of time going through my old letters. Quite a few of interest came up. Had drinks + dinner with Paul + Mary + Marie. Delicious dinner + too much to drink? Tried to get Marie to tell my fortune but without success. Feel she’ll do it soon though. Came downstairs about one and called Danny + June at the Fa. Must go to San Diego when I get my new car.
Woke at noon or so. Had about 10 cups of instant coffee with Bill. We talked. Mary + Paul called – had been worried. I hadn’t banked on their early rising. Was touched. Bill told me anytime I wanted to get away without leaving town I could stay in his guestroom – a message from Newcomb on the service. He’s arriving Thursday at [crossed out letters] 1:30 and staying until Sunday noon. I called him in Tulsa and we had pleasant chat. I thought it might be nice to have a dinner party for him on Friday. I haven’t really entertained since Peter left in January. Spoke with Mary and she thought it was a good idea. Called Lyle and he can come. So can the Erdmans. Henry Jones will let me know. I left a message for Bill who’d gone out earlier. Benito called to say that they were going to regroup under another name + put the show on in June. I said that sounded fine as long as Bill was in agreement. He then called Bill who called me minutes later to say it was very dangerous to risk trouble with Equity. I hadn’t even thought of it that way + of course I feel the same way. Called Benito back + it was left that I’d talk to Eddie Weston when he gets back. I called Bill Brown and we made a lunch date for next Monday. I took Humbug and we went to dinner at Timmy’s. He can’t make it Friday night. We had a pleasant evening. Talked quite a bit for a change + also watched some good TV. I came home about 11. Had a beer with Mary + Paul. Paul’s got another 1 day film job on an MGM movie and is up for the lead in an Antonione film wow. Came downstairs + went to bed a little after midnight. I’m worn out. Gave Paul a check for $200.00 for his film.
Up at 4 am. Woke Winnie with hot chocolate. Met Mary at Sunset + Highland at 4:50. Rode with her to the Bowl for the sunrise service. Next time I think I’ll go alone. It was beautiful from the point of view of nature – the sun coming up behind the hills in pinky luminescence – lighting the cross – the birds, the trees, the clouds, the hills. But the thermos of coffee (laced with brandy) the coffee cake, the rattling wax paper, the cigarettes, the handcream all were anti-Easter too. And so another time I’ll go alone. Mary went home to Les + Winnie + I came back here + continued our running game of Spite + Malice in which Winnie remains perennially ahead at 8:30 I took a four hour nap while Winnie went out to lie in the sun. Then more cards + a brunch-type meal. We wrote Mather + Marilou (“Aunt P. got smashed – really smashed” was the comment on Weds.) Called Daddy + called Hilary Spoke with Elizabeth + Mary. Made plans for the Watts Towers tomorrow. Spoke with Leon. Dressed + bathed + at 6:15 Mary, Paul, Winnie + I took off in the Yellow Submarine for Pasadena to see “Hey Mr. Lightman” – we ate at a good place – the Royal Buffet. Saw Karen Norris in Pasadena “What’s been Happening?” – Couldn’t begin to tell her so just told her Peter + I were getting a divorce. Saw Rosemary + Terri Lee who looks very grown up indeed. The play was fascinating . I really enjoy Oliver Haley’s mind. Loretta Leversee unfortunately didn’t project enough + though she was excellent alot of her lines were lost. I liked Morgan Sterne. Actually I’d like to see the show again. Once more I’m not sure it completely paid off but the concept was marvelous. Same family struggles as “Who’s happy now?” – Saw Clive Halliday + said Hello. Paul saw an old friend, Geo. Petranca.
Came home + I stayed up late working with Paul on his script for Hands.
Rita died with a smile on her face + her eyes open when Celeste told her they were going to take her home to Denver –
Newcomb called today – nice chat.
Slept til maybe 10 o’clock – Spoke with Celeste who gave me the name of the Denver Mortuary + then one here. They were going out shopping for a dress or negligee for Rita. I later thought of my wedding dress + took it out + ironed it. I was also happy when I wore it. But now can not keep it. I was too late however. I spent a large part of the day making calls. Called Annie who said she’d notify some of the Eastern friends. The curfew in Washington moved up to 4: pm. Called Norman Poser + left a message for Ira Zuckerman. Sent cables to Judy + Duncan + called Nathalie Boardman. Tried to reach Don Redlich but without success. I paid Rita’s U.C.L.A. Bill – only $260.00 and Bob Iverson + Dr. Holmes. Forwarded a bill to Peter. Left a message for Peter about the [crossed out word] income tax signature But was never answered. Winnie feeling alot better today. Made her own breakfast and had soup for lunch with English muffins. I set her hair in the late afternoon. Talked with David Lewis and with Bill Tregoe at some length – About the play what a relief. At 5:30 or so I drove out to Santa Monica to the Gates-Kingsley Mortuary to see Rita. The family not there. Rita in a small room with candles + crucifix + prayer stand + settee. A book to sign + I was the first. All very unreal Rita didn’t look pretty or at rest and I thought the makeup was bad + hated the nail polish. I touched her hand + she was hard as a rock. Rita was life + gaiety + imagination + intelligence + what lay there was all the antithesis. Shattering. Had to go back to the house as I’d forgotten my watch. Many cars with their headlights on in honor of Dr. King. Winnie + I ate at the Formosa. Funny bit with the french fries. On to the theatre. Packed house. Show seemed a bit uphill but I was pleased with my performance. Nicky Kordas with Winnie. Rather dreary after until Bob + Ralph put on their act – giving awards. I was invited to do an invitation of Bill. I thanked Bill at one point + he told me it was a privilege working with me – That made me happy. So very tired came home – 2 am – Winnie to bed had a drink with Mary + Paul
Johnson announced that he’s not going to run. Also that he’s going to de-escalate the war.
Slept til almost 11:30 – Coffee – Mary Parker joined me. Called the hospital – spoke with Mrs. Parr + then with Duncan. Rita had very bad night. Duncan seemed to reproach me for doing anything as frivolous as a play at this time. Maybe I’m getting hypersensitive. Celeste not there. I wasn’t anxious for any of them to see it tonight anyway. Bathed + scrubbed my toilet (Had to use ajax to get off the black from my shoes) Out to the theatre at two – stopped for cigarettes for the show + cough drops. (hmm?) Had called the Erdmans about their table but nobody there. Didn’t wear costumes for run thru except the quick changes + the party scene. So much went wrong as far as sound + lights + props, were concerned. However Ralph Morrow (Bob Manuel’s friend) was there on props and what a relief. He’ll have it down pat in another day. The party scene took off – for me and I really was good. The last scene also. Bill was in tears at the end + that was fantastically gratifying. Said it was the first time he’d ever applauded at a dress rehearsal. What miracles he’s worked with this show. We had dinner together afterward + came in late for half hour. Quite a large house – alot of Sherri’s friends + some of Dolphs. Mary + Paul for me. The show went pretty smoothly although Benito fell apart several times. A little scary but not too noticeable. I had to call for the McIlhennys blah blah blah. I didn’t have the party scene fully but I had it technically and at this stage that’s good enough. A few more run thrus + maybe I’ll nail it. We had pictures after (unannounced of course) Then Mary + Paul + Bill + I went out for some beer at the Formosa. Mary + Paul had really dug it. [crossed out letters] They’d both cried!!! Can’t ask for more than that. And tonight too was a parade of technical disasters. We broke up about 1:30. I stopped en route home + got some beer + sat up til 2:30 or 3 with Mary + Paul. Am very keyed up but feel very good. Bill told me to be sure to get people in + I now feel I really ought to.
Up early. Called Timmy – Headache gone. Decided very suddenly that I wanted to get a record player. Called Dick Erdman about the one he’s been talking about. It costs $430 + he can get it for $320.00. Went to see Benito Prezia at 10:30 – He looks very young. I explained a little about Rita + he said rehearsals would be planned around me. He definitely wants me – from Tchin-Tchin. I agreed to do the show. It’s just for 2 weeks at the end of March. Did some shopping. Came home. Rita feeling alot better. I picked up her prescription. We had lunch, went to the Erdmans’ with a check and then went to Olvera Street. Went into the Airla Adobe + wandered along the stalls. Had a tostada. Back about 4 – Rita went to bed. Dick came over with the machine and two speakers + installed them for me. Really wonderful sound. FM radio + record player in one small unit. He had some coffee + we chatted for a bit before he left. I need some records now. Peter took a few I’d wanted like Lovely War and Beyond the Fringe. I called Vicky Branch to say how sorry I was about her Dad. No address for her or I’d have written. Paid Doug’s bill for Rita – $55.00. Got a letter from Wm. Loeb which I sent on to Harold Stern. Liza called – no news. Mary called – [crossed out letter] is going off for the weekend. Druscilla called + we had a really very long conversation – I read her both Colby’s letters. Rita had been upstairs calling while I was on the phone. Mary + Paul out + I didn’t hear. So got her a bell. Her fever pretty bad. We ate a late dinner – upstairs. I’ve been re-reading my 1963 diary + Lord – it’s slow + extremely painful going. I am exhausted – mentally + physically. Can’t seem to get enough sleep.
Called Equity re agent + discovered I was still listed with Geo Morris in The Academy Directory. Called them to correct it. Called S.A.G. Pension + Welfare plan for insurance forms. Izzy called + asked me to bring the Varieties + Reporters to the Ebony tonight. I went out to Westwood to the coin shop. Bought Lincoln penny album for both Larry + Lincoln with sheet sets for each as a starter. Then I bought a second [crossed out word] Walking Liberty Book for myself I exchanged a few of Mother’s Franklin Halves + Kennedy Halves for halves I didn’t have + I bought a 1946 D Walking Liberty B.U. The only one I’ve ever had. The whole bill was about $54.00 + of that I had $49.00 in change. Now I’ll save up again for some more change. Next stop The Sporthaus – bought Daddy some lovely leather gloves, a hat for Hilary, ski googles for David, stockings for Cotton + a turtleneck ski shirt for Anthony. Bought photo albums at Bartons for Marilou + Anne and found some great men’s presents at Desmonds for Russell, Jimmy + Newcomb. Bought a pretty red nightgown for Colby. Was home by a little after 5:30 – knocked out. Mary + Paul in the guest apt. wiring frames for hanging. Peter home at 8:30 – I wanted to go out for dinner + we drove around a bit. He suggested the Greek Village + I started to go along + then said I didn’t want to. Nothing but really deadly memories. We went to the Formosa + had a good dinner – then to the Ebony. Saw Izzy – in fine fettle. God help us she’s signed with Jack Donaldson – How awful – Home + bed.
Up around 9 – Futzed about. Wrote Lester, sending him the letter from Cleveland, Waters + Bass. Then started to write Colby saying to go ahead + remodel the kitchen at Alaria when I had a large second thought. If Alaria is going to be mine (and I do want it) I want to do any remodeling. I called Hilary for her thoughts + for a little bolstering which I got in full. So then wrote Colby + said no – to just pay Dad enough rent to cover taxes. Also said the “3 college generation age gap” was “reaching to rephrase an already gratuitous remark” “(like saying the difference between Peter + me is equal to Anthony”) And yet it wasn’t a snotty letter + I sent a wad of stamps. Sent $50.00 to Care. Called Isabel when Peter got up. He didn’t want to go see her show (“I’m tired of race plays”). I told her I’d come + to have a ticket for me. Had planned to go to Pat Walkers but decided against it Peter left the house around 1:30. I started to write Daddy + then found myself getting very depressed so took an equanil + read a mystery. Good therapy – then wrote Daddy a long + fairly good letter I guess. Thawed out last little dab of boeuf bourgignon for Peter’s dinner + dressed for the theatre. Gave him a check for $150 for the household acct. Also mentioned that I’d been buying all the groceries + he just said “I know” and that was that. It’s all a little dreary really when I have to hear how he “made $1200 this week.” Went to the Ebony theatre – nice house. Two One act plays “Happy Ending” + Day of Absence” by the same author. Thought they were very good. Didn’t like the direction on the 2nd. Izzy very good. Excellent in the first but a little too much from a gesture pt. of view in the 2nd Juanita in the first – Saw Izzy + Juanita after + Amantha DeMally (briefly) – Came home via Tiny Naylor’s where I had dinner (late). Back at midnight + straight to bed.