I was up about 10 – Mather + [crossed out letters] Winnie both slept late. Had thought of Watts Towers but there really wasn’t time. Fixed breakfast + a little after noon they took off on a walk to Olivera Street. Jimmy Goodwin came over around two and we worked til 5:30. Mather + Winnie home about 4:30. We waked well particularly on Bury the Dead. I’m worried about lines + must make time. Decided to meet tomorrow night while they’re at Cabaret. Went to Mary’s for a barbecue dinner. Les there + it was a lovely evening. Sue + Winnie + Marg + the twins went over to the Central Plaza + The Free Press Bookstore + I improved the evening by having too much to drink but enjoying it. Les showed Mather how to drive the car + he drove home. Which was good as he’s going to have to take it to Arrowhead. Jim Parker here + joined us in beer. I told him I was angy at Mary P. Jim not feeling too well. Beery evening + Thence to bed. Mary Cleveland incidentally confirmed my time of birth as early on the 23rd. Just after midnight.
Up around 9:30 – Pottered about a bit. At 10:30 we set out to walk to Olivera St. All I can say is that I’m in alot better shape than whenever it was that I started walking with Peter. We set out at a good pace and kept it up all the way. Winnie got a very cute piñata. Which she insists is an Aard-vark. On the way back we stopped at the Hotel Teris Coffee Shop for a low-calorie lunch. The heat was a bit much + I got a burn. We also took the Flight of Angels ride up the cliff to Olive St. We had a good 3 hours of walking. Mary called to say Shirley Hogue had heard on the radio that Jimmy’s Life had been threatened. I called Daddy + as he knew nothing about it, I didn’t push it. Seems though last night on TV some N.Y. Representative mentioned Jimmy’s name as a good Vice Presidential candidate! Then called Hilary. Long chat + funny. The “Threat” purely political. Trucking lobby threatened to withdraw their support. Called Mary back to put her mind at rest. Jimmy here at 3:30 + we worked for about 3 hours. He said he might be able to bring Winnie tomorrow to Studio City. After he left we took Jane’s things up to her apartment on Pinehurst couldn’t find her but then had note saying “yell – I’m at Stuart + Phemy’s + can hear you.” Did just that + up we went to Stuart + Phemy’s. Nice but brief visit. Then saw Janie’s place. Liked it. By the time we left the Alpha Beta was closed + we couldn’t get any fish so I took Winnie to Diamond Jim’s for dinner. Home at ten TV. Then Winnie cued me for about 20 minutes. Put in wakeup for 5:45 + one for 6:00. Have 8 o’clock call + alot to do tomorrow. Winnie washed my car.
Up at 7:30 – Sent a telegram to Dick Kneeland asking him to call me. Wrote a letter to Dick Rund + looked again for my “Fitzwilly” call sheet. Just can’t find it anywhere. The only good thing about it is that every time I rummage in the office I get a little something more cleaned up. I underlined role in “my 3 sons” – it is quite a good part, really. Winnie came down stairs with a quiet gleam on her face. Is fitting into some pants she couldn’t get on before. So good to have some tangible results. She’s been just great on the diet. This is our 5th day. She’s also been good about not weighing daily. We played a game of spite and malice + at last I won. I called Celeste and asked her to send any of Rita’s things that she has. Told her about typist. She seemed pleased + said she would + would write Judy. And said that Marge was aware of the price of the painting. I worked a little but not enough on “Idiot’s Delight.” Lyle + Jimmy here at 3. Rehearsal went extremely well. Even for Idiot’s Delight which at least I have an inkling of now. The work is up to me. Lyle off [crossed out words] Tuesday morning for Europe fpr 3 weeks. Newcomb called. Wants to come here with Busy the weekend of the 20th, (His birthday) sounded a little forlorn so pleased when I said I’d love to have them. (He called during rehearsal + I called him back after.) [crossed out word] It should be fun and Newcomb above all deserving a little fun. During rehearsal Mary Parker taught Winnie how to make those lined burlap purses and she turned out a very good looking one. Dick called at 7:30 and I explained about the film test to him. He said he’d think on it. Will be out here in about 10 days. Mary Parker helped us fix the fish. We each cut off head. (ugh) Good dinner. I worked on the guest lists for the IRS. At 10 we watched Mission Impossible. Winnie to bed. I sorted Rita’s poetry alphabetically + found an interesting variation on “Luxembourg – Winter Day “among the “duplicates” – wrote Celeste + made a pkge of stuff for her – Mailed tax info.
Because of the 4th on Thursday, it seemed more like Sunday to me all[crossed out letter] day. Ordered some flowers to be sent to June Meheula today for her birthday. Wrote Diary. Called Annie about 3 tickets for Cabaret (including Mary Parker) Called garage (Frank Bohan’s old place) about car. Called Jane and had good chat. Will try to see her Friday. Did not call Jimmy Whelan again. Mail brought large envelope of tax deductions + letter to Dick Rund from Peter. Will have to correlate + send off as soon as possible. Winnie down about ten. Too cloudy to go to beach so didn’t wake her early. We weighed today and Winnie is below 145 which has been a block for her for a long time. She weighed 143 – total 3 lbs loss so far. I’ve lost 4 or 5 lbs but because my gain was recent + mostly beer I guess. We took the car up to the Chevron Station on 3rd for a checkup and walked back via [crossed out letters] Alpha Beta where we bought some fish + more eggs etc. Came home + played a game of spite and malice. Mary Parker took Winnie out this afternoon while I rehearsed. Lyle + Jimmy came at three. I got bad case of giggles during 2nd half. Laughed all through Bury the Dead which never was a real Boffo type play. Must work on Idiot’s Delight. Mary Parker took me to get the car (it does run better although I had qualms about the station) and I picked up my miltown Rx on the way home. After dinner we watched “The Prisoner” Patrick McGoohan’s new series on TV. Annie called + we had a long talk, then My Three Sons. I went in to bedroom + read my three sons script. Then came in + watched most of “Hard Day’s Night” – Beatles movie. Mary Parker down with Abernathy. Hummy + he all over the place. Early to bed (11:20) Diet is a little fatiguing. Winnie interested in finishing off my Pat Walker appointments.
Up at 7:30 – Caught up diary. Sorted through alot of Rita’s stuff to get it ready for typing. Flipped over some of her poetry. The selectric typewriter arrived at about 9 o’clock. Harvey had co-signed for me. I called Lauria’s about our 1966 payments + found we’d only had $134.65. So there’s a large mistake somewhere. Called Peter again + he called back this time. We talked of nothing but the tax. I also said congratulations on the film + he said it was awful + filled with violence. I think he would have talked more but I didn’t give him the chance + never even said “How are you?” Rae O’Dell came right after I’d left the house to take the laundry + pick up last weeks. Came back to find her here. I like her a lot. She got to work very quickly. Winnie up at 10:30 or 11:00. We started our Mayo Clinic diet today. Leon called and I’m working next week on “My Three Sons” said he’d call back. Winnie + I went shopping. Bought great piles of health things. Got two keys made to the front door. One for Winnie + one for Rae, made a hair appt. Friday with George Spicer. Winnie lay in the sun for half an hour or so and got some nice color. I fixed us lunch (eggs + grapefruit + tomatoes) Went out to the Palisades at 4:30 to see Bob Iverson. Showed him my sketches (Dick’s + mine) he laughed alot reading them. Asked him about dreams If they were important + then told him about my recurring one about college. The reason I’d started was because of the one 5 days ago about Peter but I couldn’t bring that up. I’m resisting and I know it. Came home. Mary had taken Winnie to the 5 + 10. We had dinner + Leon called to say it’s a 3 day job with 3rd feature billing. He’s unhappy about the salary ($600) but I’m not – Wow! Lyle + Jimmy down at 7:30. We rehearsed til 10:45. Jimmy stayed a while longer. Rather thin time for Winnie so far. Looked into typing classes to no avail. We watched some of the Tonight Show + I ripped out + restarted front of Leon’s sweater.
Up around 10 – Called Lester in N.Y. – Out to lunch but called back. Will arrange to have $6,000 put in the Bank of N.Y. next week. 4 for Leon. 2 for me. Dick Rund called from Chem. N.Y. and he’s short quite a bit in our tax deduction receipts. [crossed out letters] Over a hundred on answering service for me. Plus about a hundred on entertainment. A few items he didn’t understand which I cleared up and some things he will have to talk to Peter about. I gave him Peter’s number + address. Spoke with Leon at noon – appt to see Lee Garms at 5:30. Was late getting started all day. Bathed + facialed + shaved legs + dressed up pretty and took off about 5. Didn’t make it to Leon’s til 5:45. However had a good meeting + Lee seems willing and also has some very funny ideas. He must read Dick’s + my script. I liked him + felt for the first time he liked me. I took Leon home, was given a cherry pie for “the house” + avocados + perfume + plums. Came home at 7:30. Made coffee. Lyle + Jimmy arrived a few minutes after I did. Gave them cherry pie + I changed. Pretty good rehearsal. Did “Bury the Dead” + Our Town.” I get along very well with Jimmy – Lyle turning down a very big job in Boston. Theatre in the Secondary Schools. We had a drink after. When they left I went upstairs + Mary + I had a couple. Winnie arrives tomorrow evening + the late drinking evenings are going to have to stop.
Odd dream last night – Colby College grounds – Old Acadame bldg. Farmington up Gundy Hill. Running away. Mother caught me “I have to, Pats” show Mother’s old brown Andover coat. I was supposed to be married. Didn’t want to. Daddy said I had to. Panic. – Looked for Mother. She said I had to I kept saying I was still married to Peter my divorce not til next January. A marriage wouldn’t be legal. Only Jimmy up on a platform listening all all – Maybe agreeing? Scary semester frantic dream.
Up early – Caught up diary. Called Daddy. Jim + Hil’s baby still “no-name” Cleveland. Librarian at Dartmouth had given Daddy a good critique on his book but advised private publishing – not commercial. Daddy happy about it + I’m delighted. I sent some flowers to “Mrs. James Cleveland + Miss no-name Cleveland” at the N.L. hospital. Spoke to Leon + he sounded so depressed I sent some flowers to him too with a card saying [crossed out word] “Please cheer up things are getting better.” Oddly enough he never called + by the time I went to bed I was quite worried. Rae O’Dell called and is coming down to look over the house and possible work set up tomorrow afternoon. She charges $3.00 an hour and although that seems very reasonable I think it’s all going to run into a lot of money. What with renting the machine too. I called Mather at Daddy’s suggestion to see if he wanted to come out at the beginning end of Winnie’s trip but he didn’t feel he could. I went to Contour for steam + massage, wrote Timmy a letter, paid Hayes + Lauria’s spent quite a bit of time trying to figure out how I’d spent my money this year not too hard I guess. I bathed + washed my hair + went to meet Annie + Joe at the Theatre. We went to Chinatown. Annie on the verge of tears. Had had bad scene with Jim Preston who sounds awful awful awful. Funny Chinese dinner. We’d wanted an “elegant” place + ended up in a corner facing a wall + by the store room door. I invited Annie over after the show. Came back + Jim Goodwin arrived. We worked for almost 3 1/2 hours and I felt we accomplished a great deal. Was delighted with our rehearsal. he was a help to me and also said he liked working with me. I was so open – and I helped him too. Peggy Pope who’s back in town came over right after Annie + we had a very nice evening. Jim left about one. Fritz Holt came over after + we sat around til about 3 – Fritz took Annie home + Peggy had her car. Bed.
Up somehow, somehow at 8:30 to go pick up Bess + take my steam + massage. How I made it is beyond me and I came home + went right back to bed. Slept through til 3 or 4. Jim Klein just beginning to stir. Fixed him eggs + toast + coffee + it all seemed a little reminiscent of Spring St. with night + day juggled about. I went out to Mary’s for a barbeque dinner with her + the [crossed out word] children. Got right in the thick of traffic + didn’t make it til almost 6:15. Had to leave at 7 for rehearsal at Lyles for Lake Arrowhead reading. Jimmy Goodwin seems pleasant enough and I think we’ll manage fairly well. Only at the beginning did I have a bit of a qualm in winterset – full rounded pear shaped tones + a concert reading threw me off. But he responded very quickly to my attempts to establish ample contact + that seems important. I wept copiously through “Our Town” + most of Bury the Dead. Lyle had a few good notes but was incredibly cavalier about the whole business. We rehearse again Sunday at the house. Jimmy much involved with accents. Came home + had a beer with Mary Parker – went to bed.
Annie got a letter from Celeste addressed here with a check for $800.00 and a promise of “more later” Oh dear. Annie suggested we put it in some sort of memorial fund for Rita + I’m in agreement.
Lyle called in the afternoon to read the Reporter review blasting “Private Ear + Public Eye”.
Slept til 11:30 or so. Woke very stiff – Rainy day. Paid a couple of bills and sent welfare check (Iverson) + Bill’s car money to Bank. Called Lyle who’ll be away for the show. Going to Chicago. Called Leon to tell him it looked as though it would be a good show afterall. He asked for invitations + said he’d take them around. Told me to call Caro Jones. I called Benito and then Magda. Had long chat with her. Dick Erdman called + as I was on the phone with him + in walked Celeste, Mrs. Parr and Celeste’s two girls.. Humbug beside himself. The girls played with him + took him out for a damp run in the vacant lot. Celeste + Mrs. Parr packed Rita’s things. No real chance to talk with Celeste. They took me to lunch (3 o’clock) at Langers. Thought it would be better if I didn’t see Rita today as Doug was going and Duncan was there + Marge was returning. We had a very pleasant lunch with beer which made me very sleepy. Came home + put in a call to Doug + called Dick back. Doug told me the news of Rita was all bad. The disease has spread there’s no possibility of Chimo (Kime?) therapy as her blood count is dangerously low. I began to feel it was a question of a week or two barring the miracle of a spontaneous remission. He said he’d call to let me know if he + Joan could come to the play tomorrow or Wednesday. He’s not going to Boston after all. He told me Ion Gressor had called Rita from Paris + she’d told him she was getting alot better. Norman Poser called + I told him all I know. Gave him Rita’s number + then called him back in 15 minutes to find our how things had gone. He said she’d sounded bad + had told him Ion didn’t realize how sick she was. Norman towards the end of call said something funny but when I replied in like manner he was in tears. I felt badly. Rehearsal at the studio went oddly well. Did the party scene first – Vito’s scenes then Davids, then Giovannas + the McIlhennys. Then ran through skipping those bits. Alot of things got set + I felt very good about it. Home at two – beer with Mary + Paul – bed at 3:00 – wakeup for 9 –
Johnson announced that he’s not going to run. Also that he’s going to de-escalate the war.
Slept til almost 11:30 – Coffee – Mary Parker joined me. Called the hospital – spoke with Mrs. Parr + then with Duncan. Rita had very bad night. Duncan seemed to reproach me for doing anything as frivolous as a play at this time. Maybe I’m getting hypersensitive. Celeste not there. I wasn’t anxious for any of them to see it tonight anyway. Bathed + scrubbed my toilet (Had to use ajax to get off the black from my shoes) Out to the theatre at two – stopped for cigarettes for the show + cough drops. (hmm?) Had called the Erdmans about their table but nobody there. Didn’t wear costumes for run thru except the quick changes + the party scene. So much went wrong as far as sound + lights + props, were concerned. However Ralph Morrow (Bob Manuel’s friend) was there on props and what a relief. He’ll have it down pat in another day. The party scene took off – for me and I really was good. The last scene also. Bill was in tears at the end + that was fantastically gratifying. Said it was the first time he’d ever applauded at a dress rehearsal. What miracles he’s worked with this show. We had dinner together afterward + came in late for half hour. Quite a large house – alot of Sherri’s friends + some of Dolphs. Mary + Paul for me. The show went pretty smoothly although Benito fell apart several times. A little scary but not too noticeable. I had to call for the McIlhennys blah blah blah. I didn’t have the party scene fully but I had it technically and at this stage that’s good enough. A few more run thrus + maybe I’ll nail it. We had pictures after (unannounced of course) Then Mary + Paul + Bill + I went out for some beer at the Formosa. Mary + Paul had really dug it. [crossed out letters] They’d both cried!!! Can’t ask for more than that. And tonight too was a parade of technical disasters. We broke up about 1:30. I stopped en route home + got some beer + sat up til 2:30 or 3 with Mary + Paul. Am very keyed up but feel very good. Bill told me to be sure to get people in + I now feel I really ought to.
Up about 7:30 – Doug called at 8:15 – Rita had taken the news of the radiation very well + Doug was even making sure who administered it. Dear, Dear Doug. I fixed Celeste a breakfast of ham and eggs before she went out. Then I called Bill Tregoe in Chicago. Got him at George Womack’s. He’s not coming in until Monday but said he’d come into see the show then. Is not dying to take over the whole thing at all but said he’d help me. I’m really banking on his real theatre sense to carry us through. Called Dick Erdman + he’ll work on music with Bill + Benito + Linda early next week. It’s a gamble but I know with Bill I can’t lose. I called Magda + God bless her she’s solidly on my side. David Lewis called + is going out to see Rita tomorrow. I spoke with Peggy Witt who’s boarding Garbo + told her Bill’s plans. Renata Benedict called about Rita and is going out tomorrow also. Will take messages back to Paris for her. I called Benito + told him about Bill + also we made appt to work together at 6 before rehearsal. Thanks to last night’s run-thru morale is alot higher. Paul called frantic about 1 o’clock. Had gotten a flat on the freeway – picked him up at Melrose + Normandie + [crossed out letters] he went to Sears for a new tire while I went to a nearby jewelry shop and got a very pretty little St. Christopher’s medal for Rita and a pair of baroque mustard seed earrings‘ [crossed out letters] Only form in which the lady had a mustard seed but they were just bizarre enough + be rather Rita + fetching. Drove Paul out to hospital – we met Celeste + Mrs. Parr who told us Rita had just gone to sleep so we had coffee for 40 minutes. Paul cued me on the 2nd act. When we went up Rita was wide awake + in good spirits. The gifts an enormous success. Left at 5:40 which meant I was late for Benito. We ran our last scene lines 3 or 4 times and talked a little. Benito works quite tightly + doesn’t really know how to let go but he’s a nice guy. I hope Bill can help him. We went through the party scene first twice. Put in quite arbitrary blocking – just to have something. Then we started a run through. Went thru the first act in about 1 hr + 26 minutes. Joe came in during the 1st scene of the 2nd act. We went right on. not as good as last night. Dolph (Vito) a rather dreary guy. Long talk with Linda. Joe reblocked the 3rd act at the end – Home at 1:30 – beer with Paul.
Up at 9:00 or so. Mrs. Parr had bad migraine headache + spent the morning in bed. Celeste’s sister-in-law called. Then Benito. Then Magda about a message service. I told her I’d pay for it if she’d make the arrangements but not to let Benito know. So she called him + he called me! We also have an extra day in the theatre. Got a call from Dorothy in Leon’s office to go on a commercial at MPO for [crossed out letters] a 1st class airlines passenger. Had to knit! Started a pair of socks to take with me. Tried Bill Tregoe – He’s supposed to be back in town today but no answer – all day til midnight. (will try the Ivanhoe theatre in Chicago tomorrow morning) Had quite a long talk with Mrs. Parr this afternoon early. She’s quite a dear woman really although no big intellect. Went to M.P.O. at 3:00. Was out by 3:50. Got to the Palisades at 4:20. Quick talk with Doug. I said Celeste was wonderful and he said indeed she was + then added it’s almost too much. I knew what he meant although we’re both so grateful. I said I did feel inadequate at moments + he said well how do you think a Doctor feels? My talk with Iverson was brief too as he had another commitment. We talked alot about money but I guess it was really pretty superficial. He laughed alot. When I left I realized a thousand things I hadn’t said. I should go into Bill Wellbourne. Went to the hospital. I had on the gray french knit suit of Mother’s for the interview + Rita was delighted as I’d gotten it shortened to her specifications. We had a good visit. I was eating her chicken when Doug came in. The neurologist had been in to see her earlier. Rita asked if I didn’t look nice + Doug said I looked “lovely” which was pleasant to hear. He didn’t stay long. Celeste + Mrs. Parr just caught him at the front desk. Evidently the neurologist told him there’s a tumor on the brain stem and the only thing that can be done is pin-point radiation. This will relieve thejaw numbness, the closed eye, the headache + the inability to eat. Doug is going to have to tell Rita this tomorrow and prepare her to accept the radiation. I don’t know of anyone else in this world who could do it. I got home at 6:45 – Saw Mary + Paul briefly – fed poor Humbug who’s being sadly neglected these days + went off to rehearsal. Joe not there. Linda not there. We decided to run through the show from the top. And we did. We all tried hard as we could + honestly it wasn’t too terribly awful. Also I think it was a big morale builder for everyone concerned. Came home by midnight! Got some beer, salami + cheese. Celeste up + we talked – then visited with Mary + Paul. Was in bed by 1:30 – I feel better about the show. – Note from Timmy – Things getting a little better.
Up early. Beverly Hills for haircut at 9:00. Took my wig and my fall which George will have ready by next Weds. Went to Contour after for steam + massage. I’m so tied up + tense with all that’s going on right now it didn’t do much good. Came home + called Bob Beecher to see if there was any possibility of postponing our opening for another week. I was prepared to pay the rent for the extra week. He had another show coming in but [crossed out letters] thought it might be possible to juggle. On the strength of that I called Magda who was in favor of postponing. Called Benito to say the theatre could be available. I told him exactly how I felt. Poor Benito so in the dark. Said he’d do what he could. Message for Rita from Sam Epstein. I called him + told him all the latest including the possibility of a tumor in the brain. He kept asking me about the care she was getting + the Doctors + the “moral support” etc. I began to feel very defensive. Celeste called right after with the [crossed out letter] news that the brain scan was clear. Nothing showed – nor on the x-rays. News so good I called Sam Epstein back. Called Doug + had long talk with Mona. Quite touching really. She’s such a nice girl. it’s a pity she’s lonely. Asked her to my play. (Ha!) Told her I’d stop to see Doug tomorrow. Paid a couple of bills. Very nice letter from Daddy who’s not connected with the University Club in Boston so can’t help Doug. Mrs. Parr came in from Denver around 2 o’clock. I went out to the hospital about 4:30. Met her there + we talked quite a bit. She seems a nice lady although not on the same wave length – But I feel abysmally sorry for her right now. I saw Rita who was being given a transfusion + when I asked her how she felt she told me if she didn’t know she was getting better she’d feel like she was “on the way out” – I took Mrs. Parr back to the house + got her a little bit settled. Humbug took to her immediately – Thank God. Went to Rehearsal at 7:30 – Joe arrived at 8:00. Started working on the 2nd Act. Worked on party scene for several hours without getting to my entrance 3 pages from the top. I burst into tears in the garage with poor Laurie. Finally I came on + Joe left! His wife had been rushed to the hospital with a hemorrhage. The company sat + talked about various alternatives two of the company will not be available for an extra week. But we finally agreed to postpone opening til a week from Saturday + then have 2 previews + run 5 performances the next week. [crossed out letters] Benito, Bob, Laurie + I went (top) to see Joe at one o’clock. We had several drinks + talked over problems. Joe wants out. Benito very upset. I said I’d try to get Bill Tregoe I think I’m relieved. Home at 2:30 – Beer with Paul. Bed about 4:00!
Up about 7:00 – Called Bess to say I couldn’t make it this morning. Will come in tomorrow. Gave Celeste coffee + took off for unemployment. Very brief today. Went to Pickwick’s and bought a small Italian dictionary and a guide book to Venice. Went to the Rexall Drug had a cup of coffee while I waited for the Broadway to open. Got a pair of gay earrings there and a very nice over the shoulder bag – also a white evening purse. All for the play. Was back at the house by eleven or so. Paid Southern Gas Co. and the phone bill. Drove Celeste out to the hospital but didn’t go in as I had a rehearsal. Sent Rita some flowers + grabbed a rather bad bite at the place across the street. Got to the Horseshoe a little after one/ [crossed out letters] fifteen. Bob, Magda, Benito and the McIlhennys there. No Giovanna, no June, no Mauro, no Vito, no stage manager. All busy elsewhere. And no Joe. We ran through what we could in the theatre but very patchy – no party scene obviously – no scene with Giovanna – no nothing really. I kept giggling but really near hysteria. Home around 4:45 – Was exhausted + with traffic no time to go to the [crossed out word] hospital. Took nap instead. Mary + Paul went out + gave Celeste the black car. Ira Zuckerman called from Winston-Salem – offered to fly to Denver or fly here to see Rita. I told him what I could – Went to evening rehearsal. Had forgotten Joe is never there on Tuesday nights. Near flip. And we’re supposed to open on Thursday of next week. We can’t possibly. Ran through bits + pieces again. I came home + had some liver + beer with Mary + Paul – and quvetsched about the show. Mary suggested trying to get it postponed. Pretty damn sensible suggestion. Also learned – Mrs. Parr is coming in town tomorrow Rita had a brain scan today – results tomorrow.
Up at 7 – washed my hair. Went upstairs about 8:00 – 8:30 brought Celeste coffee. Rita not looking well. We drove out to Doug’s a little before 10 – got there at 10:30. Rita faint + dizzy + bad headache. lay down. When Doug came in + asked her how things were going she said “I can’t make it.” Told him she wanted to go to the hospital for I.V.’s. Doug set it up + we went over to St. Johns immediately via the ambulance entrance. Celeste checked Rita in + after I’d parked, I went up with her. Double room like Peter’s. Roommate with television set on to game shows. Depressing in the extreme. Rita in very bad shape. I came back here at 12 to pick up some things for her. Had to take the night gowns Celeste had washed across the street to the dryer. Peter forwarded some bills to me but no answer to my letter of last week + don’t know if there would have been time. I couldn’t reach George Spicer to head him off from his 2 o’clock appt. here to cut Rita’s hair. Left him a note with some money (He came when I’d left but wouldn’t take the money) I went back out to St. Johns. A long afternoon. Rita desperate to start the iv’s and very upset by the TV in the room. The I.V. nurse finally came in around 6 o’clock + once that started Rita cheered up a trifle. So weak. She had chest x-rays in the afternoon. Doug’s ordered a brain scan for tomorrow. I worked on my lines alot of the afternoon. I left about 6:20. Saw Doug come in as I was leaving went to rehearsal at 7:30. Oh Lord. What a shambles I think Joe had no business to direct this play. He does have the time and he has no feeling for it at all. I have never gotten less help from a director. I really am very unhappy about the whole production. In fact I want out in the worst way. If only it were earlier on. Oddly I’d prided myself on letting things not bother me too much until last Thursday. Big mistake!!
Came home + had a beer with Mary + Paul – 1:00 when I got here + Celeste in bed. I went to bed about 2 – Recapped for Paul, though. The therapy suggestion of last night + what I’d meant to say.