Oh Lord-another of those days-diary + blanket squares and good intentions. Invited Mary + Paul to dinner- Sent in some sweepstakes coupons for “Awake” and Kodak-Surely somewhere there’s some money for someone. Went shopping at Carl’s for the makings of boeuf Bourginon- Took some 4 hours to make. Peter worked on a taped sketch of a dentist today. Very funny. I had a few suggestions which went down very badly. We are at an even worse stage of communication now-or were by the time today ended-Mary called. She’s sick with the 48 hour G.I. – trots etc. Ugh. Poor thing. We had martinis before dinner-big mistake I guess. The dinner itself delicious but hardly worth the trouble-wine-then beer + another but more ghastly one of our eternal fights-this time Peter told me flatly that he doesn’t want children and I told him that after the Golden Wedding anniversary I”m going to leave him. Surely the grounds are the oldest + most obvious. The only thing that makes it all so awful is that I do love him and on the other hand-my very grounds-I’ll soon be too damn old to have children anyway. Don Schwartz called with a joint appt for us at Lee Lacy’s tomorrow at 11:05 for Roman Meal Bread. Left 3 wake up calls. Also tried to locate my old “Day in Court” film – called Jack Donaldson + Reve Barskin.
Lucretia Cole called at 9 to say she was sick with a sore throat + couldn’t see me which was just fine by me as I didn’t feel any too grand either. Caught up on diary + sent in some sweepstakes coupons – (Leave no store unturned). Made a pkge of books for Carl + Sue. Raining out. Peter home about 2-We went + voted. Was glad to have the list of Mary’s people for the board of education. Didn’t know too much about John Ferraro and Clifford Borland who were running for Council but Borland’s workers made the mistake of calling p + giving a very partisan plug (Rep.) as it’s a non-partisan office we both decided against him on that ground alone. Very light voter turn-out. Less than 15%. We went to the Post office + bought some stamps-3 sheets of 1 1/4 (the new Gallatin) and got a plate block of the Frederick Douglas 25¢ stamp. Then to Newburys where I got some wool and to Robinson’s where Peter bought the 1966 fillers for the stamp album. Panos (!!!!) had called around noon + invited us to a gallery closeout – Said he had a painting at the back of our house. We went with a good deal of trepidation around 6:30-He insisted on giving Peter the painting. Very odd to say the least but quite appealing-faces in every section-Highly unflattering profile of me – the Queen Bitch backed up to a profile of Peter (“gentle Peter”) with tears running down his face – Ho Hum. But I like it anyway. [crossed out writing] Panos dressed in a Fez and bizarre oddments of mediterranea – we went to Timmy’s for dinner. Watched alot of TV-Peter upset because I got “involved” in a Daktari episode-stupid-home around midnight-
Woke about one-feeling a little better-Peter off at the club. Spoke with Henry Jones + found he’s on a diet so decided on steak, salad, carrots, fresh fruit. Took Humbug with me to the Safeway and then to the Akron where I didn’t see anything worth getting. Place mobbed-Stopped at a Foster’s Freeze on the way home to give Hummy an ice cream cone and ran into Milt King with his moppy little dog nipper. So nice to see him. Home at 3:30 or 4 and prepared dinner. Cut up pineapple, melon + strawberries for dessert. Peter home at 5:30 feeling pretty poorly so napped for an hour. Henry came early-a little before 7 + I was still getting dressed. My cold puts me in a veryunsparkly mood I’m afraid. Things picked up when Mary + Mary Parker came. Henry not drinking because of his diet-looks very well. Dinner a big success. We played a game of Henry’s after the main course-a sort of impressions-Forest key body of water, bear, concrete wall. Symbols for your life. Your egg, sex, your problems, death. Amazing similarities at moments between Mary + me even though I went out of the room while she talked-same childhood books I guess or something. I twas alot of fun and very interesting. After dinner we watched a little (the last part) of death of a salesman which depressed us all + the party dispersed-Finished cleaning up + went to bed-
Oh dear-just couldn’t get out of bed today. Have a wretched cold that came on me out of the blue. Coughing, sneezing, runny nose etc. Took a contac, had some breakfast + went back to bed. Read a very good mystery by Martha Albrand and then started “The Magus”-kept dozing off-Slight fever-about 100°-Timmy called. Peter home around 5:30 or 6:00 – He let me sleep which was a mistake as between then + nine when I woke he drank 1/2 bottle of vodka + was fairly sloshed. I didn’t realize it at first. He went out + got us some Mexican food and then I went out like an idiot + got some beer-I hadn’t been drinking and felt like some nice alcoholic liquid. We took it upstairs + regaled poor Mary Parker. Inspite of a 2nd Contac pill I was very sneezy + decided to sleep in the apartment. Got quite a snotty special delivery note from Bill today about my reading musts-“Third Grade” – Malaparte, Celine, etc. Traver-Rambled a little but Peter got so livid that I began to see it in perspective.
Up around ten-Peter paid bills-Parker, Hayes, B.L. Orary + Lauria’s – we’re really low. I called friend of Lyle’s, Lucretia Cole + will see her on Tuesday. Don’t really know to what end but Lyle wants us to meet. I washed my hair + dressed up in a poodle-type blue dress with little blue bow in my hair + went off to VPI to read for part of a poodle. Funny call-some very nice actresses there. They ran 30 seconds of film on everyone. No telling what happened for a while but felt I was out-poodled by at least one girl. Fixed ham rolls + raw vegetables + carrots + salad + rolls + strawberries for dessert. Don arrived around 7:30-Mary Parker + Diane joined us. Pleasant evening. Good dinner + think Don was interested in Diane. Paul came in about 11:45 and I gave him some dinner and Don worked out a composite for him. I modeled my poodle outfit. Party broke up around 1:30-Paul stayed down a while + we watched Humbug + Burly play-Bed about 2:30-So tired. Humbug met one of Shana’s puppies today and was frightened silly-Mother called from Phoenix-I’d thought they left last week. Hil + Jim still there too. Nice chat although so unexpected I had nothing to say.
Up early-about 8:30 or 9-caught up on diary-did little potsy things. Called Doug’s office to get renewal on thyroid Rx. Took whole pile of books to the Vassar Book Fair to a Mrs. Kuhns in Freemont Place-wasn’t there so I left a note-Picked up Rx + some mailers and groceries for dinner. Called Lyle + found we’re going to the theatre [crossed out writing] next Thursday-not [crossed out writing] tonight. Lyle called later + read me a lovely letter from a friend of his named Lucretia Cole about my book. Told me to call her. Did but no answer so will try again tomorrow. Fixed a sort of stew type dinner. Long talk with Peter about my current state of mind which God knows + I know is rotten. Don’t know if it did any good for either of us. Mary + Paul came down for one drink with us. We drank beer til late. Percy + Jack had a hold up-$100.00 was taken. We sent our income tax today. And so it goes. Peter got a call from Steve Kay in N.Y. about possibility of more voice overs for [crossed out writing] Baer [Bayer] – Keeping fingers crossed.
Up around 10-Don Schwartz called-Is sending me up for the part of a poodle on a Winston commercial-Said he needed a Bulldog type and I suggested Bernie Fein. I called Bernie who was willing + free + thought it was a funny idea. He (Bernie) also chatted with Peter + said he’d send him a script of their next production-Enemy of the People. I called Don back to clear Bernie. I got a call back for Sunkist Orange at 4:30 this afternoon. Peter off to the club. I finished my letter to Chuck Neighbors + wrote one to Bill Welborne – got both off in the 2 o’clock mail. Letter from Colby saying I was to be responsible for the programs for Mother + Daddy’s Golden Wedding party. All a little confusing-will have to write or call her. Card from Sue Glick saying they’d seen Peter on the Andy Griffith’s show. Elizabeth called + I was so depressed I’m sure she wished she hadn’t called. Paul came down with a 3rd set of pictures-taken by Gary Young and we chose about 21 between us. Peter home at 3:45-I left at 4:00 with a Miltown under my belt. I seemed to be one of the only girls there on call back + they asked me my availability once again but I didn’t feel as good about it as yesterday. Came home via the Safeway + shopped for dinner. Had mentioned going out for dinner but it seemed suddenly very stupid. We should save it til we have something to celebrate-if ever. Hamburgers, salad, turnips + carrots. Went to the Civic playhouse-Marvin Kaplan off + his understudy on. The whole play didn’t strike me funny tonight – I know it too well + suddenly the chart business was alot too close to home. Had a beer with Martin Brooks after + came home.
Mildly hungover day. Read Lionel’s play “Far Away the Train Birds Cry”- Enjoyed it although I’m afraid it’s a little old fashioned now. But oh the pleasure in reading a drama with a happy ending. Read another mystery. Called Charlie Neighbors at his office + I liked the sound of him enormously. He’s very excited about Bill’s book and said he’d be glad to look at “The Lion is Busy.” Asked me to write him a list of places it had been sent etc. Said he’d try it out on his little girl who’s 6 1/2. If he reads it aloud to her that should be perfect. After hanging up I started to write him + then the whole appalling mess came flooding back + I took refuge in another mystery instead. We watched “Mr. Terrific” on TV. Loved John McGiven period. What an awful show. Mary Parker joined us + we all went to the Ester Robles gallery about 9:15 to the opening. All kinetic sculpture-gadgety but interesting. And very well attended. On the way home we came along Wilshire Blvd. Trying to spot Mary’s painting. And then by God it was-in a window off the Broadway at Ridgely + Wilshire. “The Hero in Downtown L.A.” It looked just great. Came home + had a cake with Mary + Paul + then went to bed-about midnight. I have a call for Sunkist Orange tomorrow at 2:20.
Up + fixed coffee + then bed again until noon-Mary down around 1-we chit-chatted. Peter up about 2-I made rolls. He left for the club about 2:30. Mary went home after a nice visit around 3:30. Humbug a naughty dog all day. Crapped in the living room. I read a mystery story by Hugh Pentecost. After Mary left I found a book we’d all been looking for all last night propping up the bedroom window. Peter home around six. Scotty + Druscilla called three times. The first time completely sober-the next time smashed + the 3rd time, according to Peter, they were either so drunk they sounded sober or else they were coming out of it. I wish Scotty + Drue would get together. Dick doesn’t appear to be going to marry her ever. We did talk though the first time they called about a weekend in Maine after the Golden Wedding. It would be fun. We went to Lionel + Jo’s around 6:30. There were 3 or 4 other people there-Dave Davidsen (psychiatrist). Scott Marlowe, actor, + Carol somebody. Jo had made a lovely ham + we had a very good dinner. I took them one of the egg butterflies + they loved it. Maxine Stuart came in + I’m afraid she bores me to bits but very nice time otherwise. Left at [crossed out writing] 10/thirty. Steve Darwin + Pam Wiggitt, 2 friends of John Mayhew (Jim’s impossible roommate) spent the night in the apartment-very appealing kids. Steve is having an exhibition with 6 other sculptors at the Ester Robbes gallery tomorrow night. Mary + Paul joined us + we all had beer-Peter + I as usual a little more than everyone else. Bed about 3-
Day began late-ish. With a sort of blow up on my part-Told Peter (who started to tell me what he’d been doing last night out at the beach) that I didn’t give a damn what he did-as we never seemed to do anything together anymore. And all he seems to do by himself is go to the club which is becoming a substitute for even looking for work. I”m getting very thin edged these days. I tried to call Check Neighbors again without success. Made one more butterfly. They are pretty-useless or not. After my outburst Peter didn’t go to the club (I didn’t mention my feelings about the club to him) but went shopping for shish-kebab makings + pottered about. He never mailed the very good letter to Jim or re-wrote the rather ragged one to Ellsworth. Mary came over about 7:30 Mary Parker joined us for a drink. We had a good dinner + then watched “The Left Hand of God” (an old Bogart film) on TV + the late news with some beer. Mary went to bed about 12:30 and Peter + I stayed up with more beer + argued things out-unsuccessfully I’d say off hand-Bed about 3:30 am-
Dr. Ware called-had had good trip to Phoenix + nice visit with Mother + Daddy. Mary called-had come back last night which was a surprise to her as she’d thought she was coming back today. But she’d had a good time which is the only important thing. Asked her for dinner tomorrow night. Called Henry Jones to ask him too but he couldn’t make it. Albert Carrier called + we had a nice chat at the end of which is turned out he’d never gotten his book back “Door to the Future” – I went through my diary and found out it had been mailed on February 16th-Incredible + just awful as it was a gift copy with an inscription. Spoke with Don Schwartz + invited him to dinner next Friday. Got a special delivery letter from Bill Welborne that Humbug chewed the middle out of that middle contained address + phone number of Charles Neighbors-Bill’s new agent whom he thought might be interested in the Lion-Mary Parker helped piece the phone number back together so all is not lost. She + I made butterfly wings-Paul disapproving of trivia-Peter + I went to dinner at Timmy’s. Shepherd’s pie. Watched Lilies of the Field on TV. Carey came over. We came home about eleven thirty. Bought Ham at Ralph’s en route + beer. Mary Parker [crossed out writing] came down + I finished two butterflies. She’s stopped work at the moment. Paul came home + I joined them upstairs for a while. Peter who’d gone to bed came up about 3 + said he couldn’t sleep + was going out to the beach. I asked him if he wanted company + he said no. I came downstairs shortly after + worked on a third butterfly til 6am-thought to welcome Peter back but at that point was just too tired + went to bed.
Woke up [crossed out writing] in the apartment with no memory of going up there. Guess Peter must have been snoring or tossing or something. He left for the club fairly early. I called Gene Reynolds who I saw in Variety was directing a play. He’d just gotten married a month ago and was off to Europe in a while. Said he’d call when they got back. If he doesn’t I’ll try then-have them to dinner with the Middletons. Called Lionel-no answer. So called Jo who said Lionel had called Don. Lionel later called me + said he had an appt [crossed out writing] on Tuesday. Mary Parker + I worked on our large Easter eggs. Oh fiasco. Mine collapsed. But luckily Nicky’s is still there to play with. We made spackle and got everything pretty messy. Then we dyed the blown out eggs + started working on the butterfly wings. Jim Parker here most of the afternoon. Offered to help Peter polish the new car. Then they went out to look at a Rambler-possible source of a new motor-Paul fixed Mary dinner and Peter came back + got us some Mexican food. Delicious. Mary + Paul went to the movies + we watched a marvelous film “The Counterfeit Traitor” on TV. Then we went for a ride in the new car with Humbug. So luxurious. Stopped for an Orange Julius on the way home. Bed early-around one.
Reasonably busy day-Dean called at 10 with a 4:55 appt at Lee Lacey on Melrose Place-for Nabisco. Peter shopped for dinner and I made 6 stuffed rolled ham slices, prepared the carrots, and [crossed out writing] salad. Peter left the house around one with Mary + Paul who took him out to the Barkers to pick up the new car. They went on out to Venice then + Peter to the club. I lay in the sun a little + washed my hair. Sent in money for the Smith Register, Smith LA dues and $10 each to CARE and the Braille Institute. Something is better than nothing and that was as far as I could go. Got to Lee Lacy at 5:00 to discover the receptionist was none other than Jo Kranitz! Ended up inviting Peter + me to dinner on Sunday at 6 o’clock. Lionel is now working for a masters in Psychology with an eye to a doctorate and a practice-the acting side has been very slow. I saw him on the street + suggested he try Don Schwartz-told him I’d call Don on his behalf tonight-Raced home stopping for bourbon and biscuits at Von’s. Was home by 6:15. Called Don who said he’d see Lionel. Peter had set the table-Nicky Korda couldn’t come which was just as well as it later developed Vicky had left a boyfriend Bill Sakmar sitting in her apartment. Told her to call him + ask him over. Mary + Paul joined us-the ham slices a great success. Bill a nice boy. Vicky really does talk a blue streak-incredible how I ever got through Tchin-Tchin but I guess it was just so much frosting on an already delicious cake. Took the kids on the grand tour. Then opened the “Kookie Kombo” one-man orchestra + all managed to make the most horrendous dine. They left about 1 o’clock and we sat around for a little while singing hymns + then went to bed about 2:30.
Mary Parker’s “Hero in downtown L.A.” accepted-Whee!
Peter off early to the club-Spoke with Mary who presented James with his sabre this afternoon (Spoke with her before + after) + I gathered all went well. She left for Phoenix on the 7:50 tonight-Do hope she has a good time-I sewed a button on Peter’s pants, lay in the sun, and changed the sheets on our bed. The morning mail brought an acceptance for Mary of “Hero in Downtown L.A.” Her first so far. So happy for her. Later today Paul’s unemployment insurance went up to $52 from $25 so the upstairs is a happy place. I read “The Fourth of June” by David Benedictus-quite an extraordinary book I thought-terribly funny, horribly perceptive and in sports quite touching. I also slept a good deal. Brava! Peter fixed us an omelet for dinner-a superior one on all counts. We then went upstairs after for beer with Mary, Paul + Timmy. I was in a rather sour mood for unknown reasons and when Timmy had gone + Mary + Paul + Peter went out for a late snack + coffee. I repaired in such fashion to bed.
Up around 10-Peter called Dale Burker-They haven’t sold their car yet + he made a date to go see it this afternoon. He had a 3 o’clock appt at Filmways for a Raleigh commercial so took his good clothes to the club. I spend a large part of the day coloring one of the old “Lion is Busy” posters that have been sitting in my office closet waiting to be finished so I can hang it up. It looks just fine. Had breakfast with Mary + Paul-the director of a film came by to look at Mary’s paintings with an eye to using them therein. Brief visit but he was apparently pleased + interested. I sewed Peter’s grey slacks and then in a burst of energy cleaned the store. No mail of any consequence. The big eggs are drying slowly but look pretty egg-like. Peter home around six. Bruce + Dael’s car is in excellent shape. It’s a ’65 Ford Falcon sedan with only 12,000 miles on it. I’d wanted a station wagon but the savings will amount to $1500 as Bruce is only asking $1200. We’ll be able to replace the last $550 we took from the savings acct + we’ll be able to get along for another month or two. I hate money being this important (and this scarce) but it’s a fact to be accepted. I fixed pork cops + carrots + potatoes all simmered in last night’s spaghetti sauce. Got a call from Luce (Davis) Bader-Smith ’52 asking me to make some calls for her for Smith + said I would as it didn’t sound too demanding. Peter called the Ford dealer + cancelled our order. Poor Chuck Chambers the salesman who loses the commission was very upset + made it very hard on Peter. However if they had delivered on schedule this would never have happened-Vicky called + said Peter was on “Run for Your Life” tonite. We called Mary + Carl + Sue. Finished dinner (Vicky’s coming Weds.) Watched the show, the news + went to bed-