Christmas Eve. Slept til eleven. Dick so tired he couldn’t sleep. After lunch he went with Daddy to New-Port. I went to Barn View for stocking stuff. Then downtown with Mather + Winnie. Bookshelf for Ann Merrill + odds + Ends. Miniature Dept. Store. Stopped at Kidders – missed Bill. Stopped at Drugstore + Saw Marian. Saw Gen at the sport shop. Home + Mather, Winnie, Dick + I decorated the Xmas tree. Went to Barnview at 5:30. Couple of drinks + then lovely roast beef dinner. Down to church, the living creche + the candle light service – beautiful as always. Home + had a beer with Daddy + saw him nicely to bed at 9:30. Over to Barnview. Hilary wrapping. Jimmy on vacation + a bit tight – euphemism – Hilary a little annoyed Jimmy too conservative + dogmatic – but hell – compared to Las Vegas – Wow! Home + more to drink + wrapped stocking things – Bed about 1:30 or 2 –
Left Vegas at 9:30 – in alot of confusion. Dick left his glasses. Jimmy Judge drove us to airport. Had [crossed out word] breakfast on plane – snowstorm in Chicago – 2 1/2 hours circling 2 1/2 hours on the ground for repairs – 11 1/2 hrs in plane. Got to Boston 10:40 instead of 6:30. Mather + Winnie waiting – took wrong turn + drove to Salem, Mass. Snowing. “There’s never any snow on the roads in New Hampshire” I’d said. Hah! Got to New London 3: am. Bed at 3:30. Mather + Winnie over at Barn View.
David stopped by to say goodbye –
Sent off a package of stuff to Las Vegas that we won’t be needing plus presents. Daddy joined us for breakfast. Hilary told me yesterday that he was delighted with Dick + I was so happy. Hated to say good bye to Daddy. Dear, dear Daddy. His book incidentally is in its final stages + we saw the end papers + lay out + binding + I think it’s going to be lovely. We drove down the Vermont side. Pouring rain after we left N.H. We got to Simsbury at 1:10 + Cotton looking just darling was ready in minutes. Off to Farmington where Winnie was waiting outside Main. She looks awfully well + I’m delighted She’s so happy there. We went to The Corner House for a heavenly lunch. The girls so cute. They had shrimp cocktails + oysters (4 between them) while we had a couple of bloody Mary’s + then they had steaks + I had fish + I forget Dick’s choice. We gave them each $5 after lunch. Certainly 2 easier to please children would be hard to find. We left Winnie first as she had to be back by 3 + then took Cotton back to Ethel Walkers. The drive down to Riverdale was really hairy because of the rain. We got there about 6 o’clock (Had a couple of drinks + then Russell went out for Chinese food. Anthony wasn’t his usual sunny self + I was sorry as I wanted Dick to meet him at his best. Jessie going through all the agony of being accepted at College. Syracuse has accepted her but now she doesn’t want to go. Co + Russell as always welcoming + easy to be with. We played Poker + Dick + I lost as the evening waxed on. But it was alot gayer than when Colby was losing at the beginning. Late drunk evening.
We did alot today. Went to the Inn for lunch. Saw Grace Dean whom Daddy wanted me to introduce Dick to to “prove I was still in the ring.” We made all the rounds – Sport Shop, Bettys, Drugstore, Post office Saw [crossed out letters] Millie about Alaria. Got the Saunder’s address from Hilary, we went to Pine craft and bought a few odds + ends for Joyce + Irene + Jack + George. In the morning we went to Newport and bought liquor for Daddy. Got a scrapbook + fillers for Ethel. Plus five dollars. Everyone pleased I guess. After dinner we went to the High school to see David in his play. 3 one acts. Competition between Sunapee (“Hello out there”) Newport (This property is condemned”) and New London with an original adaptation of the prologue to the Canterbury Tales. “Hello out There” was unbearable. The boy just awful. The Newport entry was inappropriate but the girl a little bit interesting. The New London Show was last + best + really very entertaining. David terribly funny. We’d taken Lincoln with us + gave him a ride home with a funny little friend of his. We played cards when we got back + when Ethel joined us it got quite gay. I was big loser + Dick big winner. Evening ended with me owing him $1750 + Ethel owing him a cool thousand. Ethel sold him a piece of mince pie + was even + I went to bed with him for my debt.
Dick furious at me this morning because I’d “raped” Lansing Bailey. Really grim + told me he wouldn’t trust me in New York + that he was going back to Vegas after seeing Colby. All I could do was apologize + I pointed out to him that certainly Lansing was “safe.” But no good. Daddy had fallen down going to bed last night but was unhurt. He took Dick to the cleaners + the laundry + they drove around a little. Returned in slightly better spirits. We drove up to Hanover for lunch at the Inn. Such a beautiful drive + really glorious warm weather. We went into Hopkins Center + saw a Happening that I thought was quite impressive. Then several exhibits. We came back around three. Dick now in fairly good humor. We took a nap + made love – Daddy’s cry “Moderation.” Hilary over for a drink before dinner. We decided to stay in N.L. until Weds. Colby called + our decision was good as she couldn’t see us Tues. night. Nice dinner. after which Daddy went straight to bed. We played cards + then found The Academy Awards were on tonight. Watched them. Interesting new format but a little forced. Winners seemed less important than the show. Cliff Robertson won + Katherine Hepburn + Barbara Streisand shared first place. Oliver was the best film, Jack Albertson best supporting actor + Ruth Gordon best supporting actress. “Windmills of my Mind” the top song. Over about 12:30. Glad we’d taken a nap.
Up + went to church. Bob Thurston gave us his blessing from the pulpit. After we went through the new Parish house. funny bit about putting 3 pikes on the wall (low) to keep the children from falling over. Dick suggested ground glass. Sherry after. Jimmy joined us. David over on the ski doo + Dick tried it. As he went hurtling across the field tie flying, Jimmy said “It was nice to have known him.” Good Sunday dinner. Then over to Barn View. First though Daddy gave Dick “The Tour.” Followed by a small tour of Barn View. We drove over to Alaria. Left the car on the hard top + went across the beach. The house all boarded up. We went in the kitchen and of course I’d forgotten that the electricity was off. We got sort of a look with candles but I didn’t think Dick liked it much. Came home + changed for Hilary + Jim’s party. Seth + Millie, Janice + Bob Wallace, Marian Towne, Easy + Fairfax Downey, The Balins, Henry Pogue. Norman Leger + Lansing Bailay, the Thurstons, The Jensens, The Woodmans and a few others. Okay at the outset but ended up drunk with Lansing + Norman + Marian. Jimmy had left for Washington. Came home (I presume as I was there in the morning) and Dick poured himself + me + Daddy all another.
Arrived Boston 10:13. Mather met us. 3 front teeth missing so he looked a little like Ron Moody We picked up a yellow chevrolet from Hertz + drove to Mather’s new apartment. Really a great place although not yet furnished. Lots of books though. To celebrate our recent marriage Mather had bought a 6 pack of Ballantyne ale + a bottle of Peach Brandy! Dear Mather. We had an ale, then went to the top of the Prudential building. Then back for a little Peach Brandy then to the Union Oyster house for lunch. We left Boston about 2:30 + got to New London after stopping for a no-doz about 5:30. Took the “Sarah Blanding Room.” Jimmy + Hilary invited for 6 but didn’t make it til 6:45. Daddy funny about J.C.C’s idea of time. Daddy called Dick Peter + then asked me if I’d heard from him. (I had) Dick said “No, that’s the other one” + he + Daddy seemed to get along famously. Ethel back + looking remarkably well. So good to see her. We had a really very pleasant evening. Quite early as we were exhausted.
Slept til ten. Will be very rested by the time I get back. Called Lester who said the money had gone out. Changed name + address with them Will call Jim Fleming tomorrow. Talked with Lansing + invited Hil + Jim to dinner tomorrow night. Steadily falling snow all day + into the night. Wrote Dick + mailed Ethel’s letters to her. Walked downtown after lunch + nap. Went to Village Studio bought darling present for little Susan + a giant glass for Daddy plus paper[crossed out letter] + envelopes etc. Went to P.O. + then to Drug store where I had long talk with Marian Towne. She’s had a bad time this past year + I’m so sorry. Came home + washed hair + bathed. Watched news + went with Daddy to Edgewood for a really delicious dinner. Home + built a fire + lay in front of it. Daddy up about 9:15 or so. I called Dick. He’s going down to L.A. tomorrow to do some things around the house “I don’t have a damn thing to do here Darling.” It will be nice to think of him there + I’m looking forward so much to seeing him again. This trip has been very good for me. I read part of a fascinating acct of an imposter in the New Yorker + then a little after ten I went upstairs. Read for a bit and then went to bed.
Sam Best died today.
Mr. Best died in the early morning. Eva is in the hospital + didn’t really encompass the news. Odd how 2 years ago everyone thought she’d go momentarily + so glad Mother didn’t have to go through that. Daddy + I drove over to Woodstock Vermont + had a lovely lunch at the Woodstock Inn then went to Morgan Ballou’s where I tried on about 20 dresses + found nothing I liked. But lovely trip. Daddy had stayed at the inn with Mother + the Colgates in [crossed out word] 1913. Mrs. Merrill this morning called to tell me that the colors of the painting in the daylight looked “just terrible” – “hard + awful” – “Carl Cochran is wasting his time.” Hilary called to say she liked it. After Daddy + I got back I went to Cricenti’s to shop and then t0 the College Sport Shop where I bought a dress, 2 pairs of slacks and two tops. Also a sweater for [crossed out letters] Dick, a shirt for Daddy + a tie + a pair of gloves. Also two very attractive little wooden bottle openers that are also carpenter’s levels. Home + fixed dinner. After dinner sat + talked with Daddy. He kept saying He’d given Mother a bad time + we talked alot about it + I said I thought Mother was a very happy woman. Also that I believed in Life after death very strongly. I think I helped a little although the tears were pouring down my face but, Daddy couldn’t see them. Went over to Hilary + Jim’s later + sat + talked with Hil + Cotton + finally just Hilary. Told her I was going to marry Dick. Came home + called him up. He said he’d been thinking about going to school. I think we’ll have a lovely life together if we keep in mind how lucky we are to have each other.
Cotton sent me a card which killed me. She said “Dear Auntie Payshe, I’m so glad you’re here for Christmas, you make us all so happy.”
Woke up in “Sarah Blandings” room + wondered where the hell I was. Evidently I’d gotten up to go to the John in the wee hours + stumbled back into the wrong bed. Made it up + repaired to my own bed. Down about 10 o’clock. Read alot more of the Yoga book. Really interesting. We went to Inn for lunch, saw Grace Dean + Eleanor Lovely. Drove to Claremont to see Ethel who was operated on Monday. Looked amazingly well for so recent an operation. Being fed intraveinously. She thought the 2 bed story was very funny. We only stayed a little while. On the way back we stopped at Pine craft + I bought a small nest of tables and 2 lamps and a nice large pine chest. Thought about a dining room table but will wait to make up my mind. Came home. Cotton over + we went out to ride on the Ski-doo. I loved it. Drove myself once but seem to have all the wrong reflexes. Back home + read more yoga. Tried a few exercises. Daddy + I over to Barn View for dinner. Susan cute as a bug. Landslide Turner stopped by with Jim. Glorious steak dinner. Took Daddy home. Decided to have Christmas dinner here. Jim + Hilary off to Lebanon around 9 o’clock (Hilary very grudgingly as I would be) to Jean Woods 25th Anniversary. Cotton + I decided to get a painting from Carl for over the mantlepiece. Called the Cochrans + said I’d be over. First I called Dick + he sounded so pleased to hear me that I was delighted. I am really very lucky to have met someone like him + I think maybe we’re good for each other. Cotton + I went to the Cochrans. We selected about 8 paintings + Carl + Eleanor came back with us to try them. We chose “Border Incident” which looked marvelous. Left it up + paid Carl. Cotton + I sat + made Xmas decoration waiting for the discovery which didn’t come! Hil looked + said good night. Jimmy the same. When pointed out he said Oh my God!
Didn’t go to bed which was dumb I guess but I really had too much to do. Plugged in the coffee at 5 – emptied garbage – made bed etc. Dick called at 6 + we had poor conversation. I’d said I’d call him tomorrow meaning tonight. Because of not sleeping, Today still seemed removed – Blah Blah. Anyway he told me to get some more coffee + I was hurt. Idiotic. [crossed out letter] Cab driver appeared promptly at 7:15. Got to the airport at 8:15. Bought insurance for Bill Wellborne, Timmy, Dick + Leon. Bought a book on yoga by Jess Stearn + read til it was time to board. Then went to sleep instantly. Don’t even remember taking off. Slept through the drinks + woke only in time for dinner. Arrived on time + Duke Rowe was there to meet me. Beautiful drive up with the headlights on the snow laden trees. Got to Jim’s at 7:10. Duke in for a drink. Susan Slater still up + as cute as can be. Boys in grand shape Hil looking well. We had spaghetti dinner + then came here for the Colby girls to carol. Fire + cocoa + cookies “Miss Bossy” – Jimmy over around 9:30. So good to see him. Daddy asked me about my boyfriend – Mary had told him over the phone. I said I’d met him on Labor Day weekend in Vegas + Daddy said “Newcomb said you didn’t go to bed” – Ho Hum. Went upstairs around 12:30. Very tired.
Up at 5:15 – finished last oddments of packing. Had breakfast and a little after six Daddy + I took off for Manchester. Fairly heavy fog alot of the way down. Hated to leave Daddy but promised (+ meant it) to be back soon. Got in at 8:45 to Laguardia and with rush hour traffic took nearly an hour in the cab to reach the Barclay. Pleasant enough place though no desk. Called Walter Laurence + made an appt. with Mr. Thomas. Discovered I’d left my address book in New Hampshire went to the Chemical N.Y. Trust and picked up the emerald guardring. Went to the Dentist at 11:30. Wasn’t out til after one. Nice to see Dr. Richman despite painful periodental treatment. Gas left me a bit nauseous today. Had lunch at a coffee shop and then went to Walter Laurences’. Gave Mr. Thomas the guard ring to mail to Daddy + the diamond bracelet + stick pin-pin to mail to Daddy. He is going to have a casing made for that old locket I took from Mother’s drawer. Called Harold Stern + Drue. Went to 67 Wall Street to see Louis. Drew up new will without much difficulty. Added $5,000 a piece for Mary Parker, Paul Prokop and Scotty and upped Timmy + Bill to $10,000 each. Am still leaving Peter 10,000 + the 3 girls $5,000 each Also added a bequest to Colby Jr. College for $15,000 in honor of Daddy. Am leaving the emerald ring + bracelet direct to Farmington and my personal property to Newcomb. Rode up on the subway with Louis. Do like him – Went to the Staempfli gallery at 6:30 or so for an opening. Met Tomi Linger (“Horribles”) Had dinner after with John + Mary Jean + Drue + Dick + Johnny at Sun Luck. Next stop the Carlyle + thence John, Johnny + M.J. went home + Drue + Dick + I went back to the Barclay for a nightcap. I’d planned to see Harold Stern but called him + he thought it was too late. He sounded a bit miffed + I was duly apologetic. Had thought he was very flexible but misjudged. Read some Edith Wharton + went to bed by 1:30.
Learned from Drue that Colby had written Peter I was a child who couldn’t grow up – was dependent on the family? Ho Ho –
Did alot today. Up early. Wrote postcards to Leon, Paul Wilkins, Dorothy + Scott Renney. Also the Erdmans, Bill Tregoe + Lyle + Miss Gray Sent get well card to Dr. Ware – Birthday card to Anne Merrill. Wrote Bill Wellborne with $40 cash, Jimmy with Isabell’s new address + details about her improved fortunes + Signe Hasso to thank her for lovely wire now over a month ago. ([crossed out word] almost 6)weeks) I mailed a package of my old letters, clothes I won’t be needing + a few of the things I picked up in Denver. Mailed it, bought stamps + talked briefly with Vic Dean. Saw Betty Nichols, told her (she knew), went to Drugstore bought an alarm clock + had a very touching + nice talk with Marian Towne. What a dear. Went to College Sportshop + settled my bill – exchanged sweater + chatted with Jen + then saw Mary again. Cashed check at bank Saw Bill Kidder who told me funny story about kid + cornflakes. Everyone now knows about Peter + me + I’ve impressed on one + all how hard it is for Daddy so don’t think he’ll be bothered – The main thing is the people I’ve talked to have been genuinely sorry + that’s something. I worry so about Newcomb in two weeks. For both Newcomb + Daddy More for the former because he assumes guilt more than anyone in our family. I phoned the Barclay + reservations are confirmed. I called Dr. Richman’s office + have 3 appointments – [crossed out word] tomorrow, Weds + Thurs. Called the service – no messages except from Mary. Called the house + little mail. Had funny letter from Mary Parker today. Lovely letter from Bill Wellborne. Spoke with Lester – Lunch on Weds. Had nice dinner with Daddy + Hilary. Will [crossed out letters] come back again fairly soon even if for just a short visit. Watched Rowan + Martin with Hilary – talked a while after. Came home – have had 2 beers as I pack – am going to bed –
Up at 9:30. Daddy not up til 10 – Fixed breakfast. Wrote Mary and a few postcards – Timmy, Millie + Elizabeth. Went to Church and it was a lovely service and a good sermon. Mrs. Warren Sargent read the scripture for the day which was on Charity and I really felt badly at my grudge against Colby. And as I began to feel badly the grudge began to crack up like an ice floe and drift down the river. Or something. Anyway I told Daddy after that I was no longer “bitter” – I suppose I’ve been nursing it along really. We came back Daddy had sherry but I decided on another cup of coffee. We went to the Edgewood for a lovely Sunday Roast Beef dinner. Daddy got off on the old farmer with daughters just married who said to his (Daddy’s) grandfather – “The Devil’s paying me off in sons-in law” – Funny thing Daddy wasn’t applying it to his own situation. Which of course I thought he was. Only when I said from generation unto generation”. Should have kept my mouth shut! We came back + watched the Red Sox v. the Yankees. They won 8-1 Whee! And the 2nd game we listened to on the radio + they won that too 4-2. So it was a great day. I fixed clam chowder for us both and then we watched The Ed Sullivan Show and the Smothers’ Brothers. Which Daddy laughed at alot. We had a good time. Jimmy called from Washington to say he couldn’t make it up here. Nice of him to call although of course I’m sorry. Daddy to bed at 10. I stayed up + watched Mission Impossible and the late news. I leave the day after tomorrow and there’s alot I haven’t done that I’ve meant to. Bed by midnight
Ethel woke me at 7 before she left. I fixed breakfast – Daddy down early. We went to the New London Inn for the windup of the “Colby Reflections” – What a really nice program it all was. We stopped at the Village Studio and bought some postcards and birthday cards. Came home. Miss Abbott came to work with Daddy and I brought my box of letters down from the attic + started through them. Farmington letters. Some so strange to read over. so remote. I found many letters referring to things I couldn’t even remember. A few may be interesting to Bob Iverson. We went to Edgewood for lunch – had Bloody Mary + Tuna salad plate – just like old times. Saw Lansing + Phyllis. Lansing looks so well. Came home + watched Red Sox v Yankees. A pitcher’s game. Santiago v. Stettlemyre. Red Sox lost 0-1. I took a nap + slept like a rock for almost 2 1/2 hours. We went to the Inn for dinner. They’ve done it over just beautifully. Came home + had beer. Talked alot. I showed Daddy some of my old letters. Also showed him the letters Colby wrote about Peter + me + the divorce. Daddy upset that I “feel so bitter towards Colby” After he went to bed I went over to see Ed + Judy Condict. Without beer. Just to visit. We played Red Dog until 3 am which was stupid on my part as I have no alarm clock. Came home + took a no-doz pill + went to bed.
I made my reservations for Tuesday at 7:40 am from Manchester to New York.