Tearful sort of day – Leon came over with somebody to look at the apartment (not interested) + while I was showing it to him Leon put a great big fish in my freezer. He also brought over some flowers. I was feeling pretty dreary + they left almost immediately. Jim Parker + a friend named Dan came over. Jim invited me to join them for dinner. I didn’t really say yes but I didn’t say no. Clifford. David, an actor in Ben’s play came over with a turkish friend named Siri Murad who wanted to see the apartment. He doesn’t have a car so it seems a little pointless. I made alot of calls today. Called Peggy Pope who said she had been thinking of calling me! As did Harold Stern. If true – how odd. Anyway both will do what they can for Mary Parker. I’ve spoken now with Eddie + Amela too + Scotty. Called David Kitchen and had very sad talk with Margaret. David has lost everything he has + Margaret is selling all their things to get enough to go back to England. She sounded so unhappy I was glad I’d called her. David has a job he couldn’t afford to turn down in a theatre in Virginia. He never should have left the theatre. I wrote notes to Dr + Mrs Sullivan, Norman + Miriam + Harriet. Mary’s mood was getting better + mine worse. Nancy Young came over + I decided not to have dinner with Mary + Jim. Called Jim but he sounded so unhappy I almost changed my mind. However I didn’t. Waved goodbye Mary in the gathering gloom + burst into tears. Bruce there + came in + had a beer with me + was very consoling. I gave him Leon’s fish + flowers. Went to bed about eleven/thirty. Started Bill’s sweater today + David Copperfield tonight.
Called Scotty this morning about Mary. He sounded depressed + kept saying why’s she coming to New York. He’s thinking of cashing in his insurance + going around the world. Wants to go to Australia to live. Said that Drue doesn’t let anyone in the apartment except him because it’s such a mess! A little funny but I guess it couts out the little dinner parties for Mary that I’d fondly envisioned. I spoke with Annie again – no new ideas. Called Mitzi about anyone who might want to come to live here. Oh Lord it’s all so confusing and such a mess. I wrote a few days diary. Talked with Mary who’s at that strained withdrawn stage – Doesn’t want “to be a burden to-anyone” – etc. etc. Paul staying here tonight so I decided to go out to Henry’s one last time. Ben Wright was over at noon to show this years line of Christmas cards. I picked one of Jo Spiro’s Little Santas. Good to talk to Ben again. He’s been in Camino Real down at the Marc Taper Forum. Said he’d speak to one of the actors in the company about the apartment. Drove out to the Palisades to see Bob Iverson. Mildly tearful session as I’d foreseen. He asked about other places I’d lived and I enumerated. Actually the only ones I’ve loved are 18th St + here. Told him about Miss Buon giorno + the rats + he laughed so hard I was dying to tell him about “snake!” but I’m not really there to entertain. Told him Henry’s joke about the lady who said when FDR died “of all the people in the world this has to happen to me!” – apropos of how I feel about Mary + Paul. Oh dear. Drove to Henry’s – we played scrabble I lost – I have been for some time. Had a drink + then a very good sole dinner with white wine. Alot of talk – about the wrenchings of loss, departure, separation etc. , Henry good to talk to. I called Millie to say [crossed out letters] I’d be in around eleven + just to ring the front door bell – We went to bed around ten.