Woke late with hangover. Went to church with Daddy. Small congregation. Dr. Squires preaching and pretty good. Home, Sherry + nice dinner. I read Daddy Thurber’s story “If Grant Had Been Drinking at Appamattox,” then “The Night the Bed Fell” and then he read “Confessions of a Gallomaniac.” He watched a pro football game in the afternoon + I finished “Rosemary’s Baby” + took a nap. The Red Sox won again. I guess they’re just a half game out of first with the Twins in first place + Chicago + Detroit tied for third at 1 1/2. I came down for cocktails + fixed us a steak sandwich. We watched the Smothers Brothers and a little of the ABC Special on Africa. Ethel came in + Daddy got panicky about later on + Ethel being too sociable. Oh Lord. I watched the rest of the Africa special + went to bed about eleven. Less than five days left before I go back.
Up fairly early. Sorted Daddy’s mail + cleared off the table for dinner tonight. Forwarded Annie’s mail. Wrote Marilou + Winifred, wrote Mary + Saul Haas and notified the Junior League of Mother’s death. Went to the hardware store + bought a broiler pan + some twine etc. Went to Pinecraft + had a darling little chair sent to the Haases for Christopher. Bought groceries at Cricenti’s and toilet paper + Kleenex for the next year at the Drug store. Ethel helped me unload + put it away. A call came from Mary for Daddy + I said he’d be back by six o’clock. I wrapped + packed the baby sweater for Christopher Haas and spent the afternoon working on Daddy’s book. He + Jim got home about 4 o’clock . Went through his mail. Tried twice to get Mary without luck. (Or else that was luck.) The Pigotts had sent him a book on Yale which he already had so he sent his copy to Newcomb. Jim, Hilary, David + Lincoln joined up for a lovely dinner. Afterward played a game with Lincoln of changing things in the dining room. Fun. They went home + [crossed out word] + Daddy + I listened to the Red Sox game. Our boys won – Whee. Cotton over + I gave her the small folding tapestry case that Pater had given mother. She’s going to Manchester with Daddy + me on Monday to pick out some some luggage with the extra Gold Bond books. Druscilla called + said Dr. Taylor had told her that he + Mrs. Taylor were going to get a divorce. Unbelievable. I told Drue how bad things were or are between Peter + me at the moment. Or at least how bad I feel they are. Had too much beer + went over + saw Ed + Judy again. Poor people!
Up at 9 – wrote diary. No mail. Wrapped pkge for me, Anne, Marilou + Winnie and took them down to the Post office. Went to Cricenti’s + bought weekend’s grocery’s. Paid for them myself as it was my idea to have all the Jim Clevelands for dinner tomorrow. After lunch I called the Rumford Travel Service + got my reservation for Friday night from Boston at 5pm. Gets in at 7:35. I wrote Peter + I also told him that I didn’t feel he wanted me to come back. Whether I’m [crossed out word] right or wrong it is how I feel and he might as well know. I sent the money $159.86 to the Rumford Travel Service. Then mailed both off. Janice Wallace called in the morning to invite me for a drink at 5:30 – went down to their lovely house. A very nice Mr + Mrs. Schmidt (?) there – he knows Daddy and Dot + later George Chavan? Really liked him. Hilary joined us there a little after 6. After dinner I took an hour’s nap. Hil. called to say she’d heard from Jim + Daddy who’d had a great trip + caught lots of fish + will be back tomorrow at 5:00. I then started in to work on Daddy’s book about 9 o’clock. Before I had the faintest idea it was 2am, I’d gotten to page 203 with 84 left to go so a good night’s work was accomplished. Read two Tales of Manhattan + went to sleep.
Up about 9 o’clock, made coffee. Paid phone bill + sent James a $15 check for his birthday. Took a $20 bill down to Mr. Rowe for a cleaning woman + to have the rug laundered. In the morning called Harold Stern. Fred Botterman who told me they’d printed 3,000 copies of “The Lion” – tried to get David Kallman who was out of town + tried to call Peter but he was out. I read chapter III of Daddy’s book. It’s intriguing + I see the comfort in history – the perspective. I went down to Wall Street at 2 o’clock. Signed my will + chatted with Louis. Asked him to autograph my copy of Tales of Manhattan and he did. Didn’t read what he wrote until I had left + was on my way to La Guardia. He said “For Patience Cleveland Hobbs from her good friend and counsel, the author Louis Auchinchloss.” I was deeply touched + wished I’d read it there + thanked him. I called Chuck Neighbors this a.m. + he gave me the name of a film that’s going to be done along with the producer’s name, address + phone number + told me to mention his name. I got to La Guardia at 3:30. Had a bite to eat + then read more of the N.H. Regiments. Co, Cotton + Jess got there at 5 + I treated to dinner in the terrace room. Cotton + I left at 6:30 – pleasant flight. Stopped at the Homestead – no mail except for a note from Mrs. London. Went to Hilary’s. Cotton modeled her new clothes. Peter called + Mary had also told Elizabeth + Henry that Daddy had died which is why they sent another sympathy card. I hadn’t understood it. Newcomb is going up there this weekend quite possible to put Mary in the hospital. Dr. Thomsen thinks she may be on the verge of a depression in which case it wouldn’t be necessary. Oh blah, blah, blah. My own conversation with Peter just ghastly – nothing said. More of the same. How are we ever going to get back together.
Woke about 9:30 – hungover. Came down to a note from Hilary with $20.00 for Cotton’s ticket. Didn’t get much accomplished today. Went over + watered the little pine on Mother’s grave. A daisy + a Devil’s paint brush have sprung up. I took away Mary’s flowers which were dead + dying. I called Druscilla at work to say I’d be in town tonight. I called Peter twice to see if there was anything he wanted done in N.Y. Couldn’t get him. Had lunch. Left for Lebanon about 2:30. Got there at 3:30 + had an hour in the luncheonette to read Daddy’s book + take notes. Same on the plane. Read through Chapter II. Got to N.Y. at 6:20. The apartment at 7 o’clock. Note there from Annie with telephone bill for $81.oo. Her friend Kathe Ellis is coming back on September 17th so no need to turn anything off. Called Drue + called Colby to make arrangements to meet with Cotton + Jessie tomorrow at La Guardia. Went down to 18th St + had several drinks with Drue + Dick. Then took a cab down to the Macao in Chinatown. Had a very good dinner. Bought some toilet paper and a can of beer + went back to the apt. It was about 11:30 when I got in. So tired + so depressed I’ve been finding pictures of Peter + me around the house + we looked so happy. What has gone wrong. I went to bed almost right away. The phone rang a shade after midnight and I lay there + didn’t answer. Felt so depressed that I was afraid I’d just cry if I did. I don’t even really know that it was Peter – I just didn’t want to take the chance.
Busy day – up fairly early. Gave notepaper to John Moore for Lillian + to Mrs. Merrill. Had left stack for Ethel in kitchen. Called Louis Auchenchloss + made changes in my will. Left Peter 50,000 instead of 25,000. Called Bill Bauhan in Peterborough + he just might be interested in doing something about my book. I mailed it to him instantly. Hilary over + we went through the rest of Mother’s office. I took some playing cards down to Mrs. London + to Vinita Gay. Got my bill from Pinecraft – whole thing only $80.50. Paid it. Got boxes from College Sportshop. Came home + had lunch. Then packed boxes for me, Marilou + Anne Cleveland. Called Anne. Nice chat. Took small box of things over to Colby. Saw Jay + Anne Rhodebeck. Goodbye. Came back + finally really started on Daddy’s book. Read about 20 pages. Anthony over late. Five o’clock. Worked for an hour. Then Hilary came for a drink. Later Colby. We ate about 7 o’clock. After dinner I typed up a report on Call of the Wild for Anthony. Also typed Bell for Adano + the character lists we’d done yesterday + today. Think they should cover his test. Feel fairly sure he knows those two books at least. Took them to Alaria + told him if he got B’s + C’s this year I’d treat him to a trip to L.A. Came back + went to see Ed + Judy. Took a six pack of beer + drank it all. Bought 5 shares of Biotronics which I meant to do since last time I was there. Got quite drunk + came back at 3 a.m. Bed.
Up pretty early, another cold day. Rainy too at the outset. I tried to call Aunt Dorrie in Washington D.C. + though I found out her phone number – there was trouble on the line. Went to church + sat with Colby. A guest minister – a Mr. Crooks who was a little over long. Communion. Raced back to the house. Lorna + Jay + Anne already here + Hilary + the boys. We fixed up some punch + cookies + Colby set out the sherry. Jack Austin over with Marian + John then Penny stopped by + left Elizabeth + Ted’s little girl Vicky. She, Bill, Ted + the boys all went on down to pick up the paper + then she + Bill stopped on the way back. Frank Langley had brought out Sardi the last time this summer. I fixed Sunday dinner for Co + Anthony while they went over to get beer for Hilary’s party + picked up some things at Alaria. Anthony finally left me Bell for Adano which I read after dinner- Co took a nap. We both went over to barn view at 5. The Barn fairly cold. Hilary had all sorts of food out. She, Colby + I all three thought it a pretty dreary party. But then I think all of the dreariness came from me. I felt old + cornball (Penny’s word when I later described it). Only people I talked with were Norman, Dede, Bob + Gina Morea, Don Jacobs + maybe a few others. Charlie + Alta had to leave early. I helped clean up after + then went over to the Anthony’s where I had a very gay evening with Penny, Bill + to my surprise, Connie + Ted who turned out to be quite a lot of fun. Came home a shade after one am. Went to bed + finished Bell for Adano.
Spoke with Jim Ewing today – they’re not decided about the column but he suggested I call Bill Bauhan in Peterborough about my book.
Up at 9:30 – Ethel had left for her doctors appt + the weekend. House seemed very empty and weather oh so cold. Mrs. Merril feeling a little underpar so I fixed her a prairie oyster which she dutifully swallowed down. Eleanor Cochran called to invite us to dinner a week from Wednesday. I couldn’t seem to settle down to anything. Co + Jessie came over + took a coat apiece. We got down the box of clothes for Russell to put in his car. I lit the fire. Anthony over. I told him to finish his book before I could work with him. Hilary + Cotton over + we went through the chest upstairs in Mothers sitting room. Also the bags in the attic. Cotton is taking a pretty green 3/4 length coat which is just the right length now + Hilary a yellow car coat and a very pretty plaid winter coat. I’m to have the lovely red winter coat but I think I’ll leave it here. Peter called + we talked a long time. Mary had called before to wish Daddy Happy Birthday. Had forgotten he was away. Spoke with Millie too. Mary’s boyfriend Les Schulty is in critical condition + has to undergo a 3rd operation today. I do hope he gets well. Also that when he’s well he gets away from Mary. She says she’s pregnant again – 5 weeks + that is possible. Most of my talk with Peter was about Mary. It’s hot out there + he was on the beach. At the end of the call I said I missed him + he said you do? I said yes + he said I’m not much to miss + that was about it. I hung up in utter desolation. Went shopping then over with Hilary + the children to Alaria for a drink. Russell brought me back + on the way said that the summer had been very rough on me + I was showing it. That’s not news. Went to Barn View for supper with Hilary + Lincoln. Lincoln still in the play. Tomorrow the last night. I took a few of Jimmy’s coins home to look over. Bed about 12:30.
[crossed out word] Our Anniversary- no letter – just a nice note from Aunt Hope about the bag. Went to the bank, cashed a check for $250.00 got the car checked. Bought a few greeting cards. After lunch went to Georges’ Mills to get some beer. Came home. Peter called at about 3:30. Said “Happy Anniversary.” Thanks to a Miltown I’d been getting through the day just fine but when he called me I went to pieces. The distance the utter lack of communication was too much and I told him it was the unhappiest anniversary I could imagine. Not very supportive but I’m in need of a little support myself. Well – there it is. I worked hard + long with Anthony after I’d washed my face + popped another Miltown down my mouth. We read to page 84. Almost a third of Bell for Adano. Denny Adam’s came over + had drinks with us as did Co + Russell + Hilary. Winnie for dinner. Daddy + I each gave [crossed out word] Winnie a card with a little money in it as we’d missed her birthday on July 24th. Ethel gave me an Anniversary card as she’d heard me mention it. [crossed out word] Mather called today + sounded incredibly better. Daddy so pleased. Daddy watched tennis on TV tonight + Winnie + I went over to Alaria. She played Spite and Malice with Jess + I joined Co at the Rhodebecks. Their Anniversary too although a different sort. Co + I talked later + she said I ought to give up the idea of children. Also we discussed Alaria + my selling it to them. I want it so much but Peter hates the place + has said so. Oh lord – I don’t know what to do about anything at all. Took Winnie home at 11:30 + we played a game of Spite before bed.
Up early. Rain threatening. Jo Jensen called to say she assumed we weren’t going to have the donkey + I decided against it as the grass was soaking + the trampolene a small duck pond. I wrote Mary Parker a note + read a mystery having decided in bad conscience not to go to Church as I thought Dr. Squires was preaching. He wasn’t + I missed a sermon by Jack Jensen which serves me right. Co + Russell + Hilary + Jim over for sherry. The weather [crossed out word] first dark + rainy then sun peeping through. We had very good Sunday dinner. Mary called when it was over + said “Hello, Hilary?” so I guess she hadn’t meant to call here. Daddy was on the other phone. She jabbered on about her boyfriend + his ulcer + having 60% of his stomach removed etc. + the grizzley bears + “Sheila – Baby” etc. Said she hadn’t gotten her bracelet yet and I said it hadn’t been sent – it was being [crossed out word] brought out by me and she said in such a damned loaded tone “Oh – so you’re coming home?” That I said after saying “Yes, sometime in September” that I had to hang up + did so. Daddy thought she sounded drunk. I thought she sounded disoriented. Dad went to watch Co + Russell play the Skows. I watched the Red Sox which was postponed almost an hour + a half but they won 4-3. Marilou called + Mather is evidently in really bad shape. I worked with Anthony + we’ve now read 50 pages of Bell for Adano. I took him back to Alaria. Raining terribly. Came home + fixed sandwiches – Ethel had left a salad. Jim came over to talk with Daddy + me about Mather – he called Bob Bass who’d seen Mather on Saturday. Mather feels at the moment that we’re all terribly against him + that Daddy is most of all against him. David came with Jim + watched TV while we talked then he + I played Spite and Malice. I took him home at 11. Jim stayed to watch the tennis semi-finals. Americans beaten in very close match. I called Ed Royce to see about tickets for “You’re a Good Man, Charlie Brown”.
Had a letter from Peter – more of the same. Still off booze. Getting up at 7 every morning to follow the “market” blah blah blah. What in God’s name am I going to back to? Never a question answered. Nothing he wouldn’t write to anyone in the world. Penny called + I went over there. Had several cups of coffee + talked quite a bit. Bill came in later + I asked him for a prescription for Miltown. He gave me Equanil instead which he says is just as good. I went shopping. Mailed a letter to Izzy who’s going into the hospital to have a benign tumor removed. After lunch we watched The Red Sox at Chicago. Very exciting game + our boys won. Worked with Anthony on Bell for Adano + we read 25 pages. The book has 250 but it moves along fast. Winnie arrived up today + Hilary met her. Penny, Bill + Elizabeth + Billy came over for cocktails. The littles brought Daddy + me a box of “treasures” – mica + quartz that they’d gotten over at Ruggles mine. Daddy was in rather a trucculent humor which seemed odd. Jim came over + he talked with him about Mather which I guess was on his mind + then he seemed more himself. We had dinner late. I went over to Barn View afterward + played Spite and Malice with David. Winnie has a very nice haircut + looks very well. I came home about 11 + went to bed. All TV + Golf were rained out tonight.
Up early. Wrote card to Peter. Not really an anniversary card as there was none appropriate but a funny card (pen ran out). I could let the whole thing go under the circumstances but I can’t see that that benefits anyone + it would be so blatantly out of character + against my grain that it would make things worse. I went to the college sport shop + bought two sweaters – one for Peter + one for Lyle whose birthday it is shortly. Had them sent. Called Longwood – the finals are currently scheduled for Weds. Daddy called Mather + I spoke with him too – he sounded very badly – utterly uncommunicative. Asked if he could “hang up now”. What do you say? We talked again with his Dr. Joel who said the best possible thing would be if he could be gotten into the hospital. Mather had made 2 appts. + kept neither. Hilary came over very shaken after little David Roos’ funeral – 14 yrs old + was killed when a racing car went out of control + crashed through the rail where the spectators were. Hil took Ethel over to get food out of their garden. I worked with Anthony + today we finished “Call of the Wild”. Rob Bass came over + we talked with him about the jewelry and about Mather’s situation. Jim later came over + it looks like Rob will have to try to get him into the hospital. He’s going to stop by there tomorrow on his way to a family wedding in Baltimore. After dinner looked at TV. [crossed out sentence] I wrote cards to the Bitters, the Downeys + the Bairds. We watched tennis on TV + saw a match that ran to 31-29 games. Good Lord. [crossed out words] I called Druscilla who had been going to call me as the chest arrived today + they love it. They hadn’t looked inside so hadn’t seen all the goodies which were packed in mounds of paper. She went through it + called back. She’s going to take care of Winnie on Wednesday.
Woke with well deserved hangover today. Nice letter from Lyle. He’s going on vacation from the 9th of September to October 2nd so he won’t be there when I get back. No more word from Peter. Oh Lord I’m so miserable + frightened about our situation. Our anniversary is Monday + I don’t know whether to notice it or let it go. Went over to the Condicts to apologize. Went to see Penny who wasn’t there. Went shopping for lunch + dinner. After lunch lay in the sun. Read. Planned to nap but never got to it. Had a day off from Anthony. Dura Crockett’s funeral was today + Hilary + Colby went but Daddy + I didn’t. Russell + I putted this afternoon with Daddy + Mr. Best and lost $2.10 – 21 points. Somehow couldn’t seem to do anything right. Came home + had a drink. Co + Russell joining us. Then a delicious dinner. Daddy very unhappy tonight. Left the table in tears. It kills me. I see the days ahead + wonder what the hell is going to happen + feel sick for him. Oh Lord – We all have some crosses I guess. I went with Jessie + Hilary to the Barn Players to see “Night of the Iguana”. Odd play + not really too good as a play but really beautifully done. Charlie superb as Nonno and Bob Morea excellent + Virginia Irwin very good. So was Rita Barnes. We took Jessie back to Alaria + came home. Daddy still up watching the tennis at Longwood on TV. I had half a beer + went to bed. No word from Mather who supposedly has tickets for the finals. He may not want to go or may not be emotionally able to. Tomorrow Daddy’s going to call. Went to bed [crossed out word] at twelve.
Overslept, but made it down a little after 9. Got breakfast out of the way- bathed + dressed + off to church. New minister-candidate- Rev. Thurston. Young + quite zippy. Back to the house for the donkey. Olga Skow + Cissie Booth, Judy + Ed Condict, Penny, Lorna + John + all of us. Gay party + good time had by all except poor little Eddie Condict who was hit on the head by a swing. Daddy + I had pork chops + turnip greens in front of the TV set. Red Sox + Angels playing a double header. They were winning 12-0 when we went down to the Parish House to a reception for Rev. + Mrs. Thurston. Saw Fred + Alex Denny whom Daddy invited to lunch with us tomorrow. We left + got back in time for the 8th + 9th innings – final score 12-2 (I think). I went upstairs to take a nap. Marilou called + wanted to know when I planned to take Winifred to Farmington. I told her I’d call the school tomorrow + then call her. After nap came down + the Red Sox were losing the 2nd game 8-0. I sat down to listen and the Sox got a run then six more + then tied it up. They got the winning run in the 8th + the Angels cost another 9-8. “The Cardiac Kids” was one sports caster’s description of the Red Sox + it’s very apt. Anth had supper here + then went to “Funny Girl” – Daddy + I had scrambled eggs + the rest of the turnip greens. I went over to Alaria about 9 o’clock – drank + told stories then later just talked with Co + Russell. Peter had said so many things to them – such as that he never wanted children but just told me he did as he wanted to get married. In a way that’s touching but why can’t he talk to me.
Up early. Miltown. Called Arthur re donkey tomorrow. Talked with Mrs. Merrill about Ethel’s coming. We’ll keep Mrs. Merrill about 3 days a week to clean I guess. Made a list for Daddy of all the childrens’ + grandchildrens’ birthdays. Went shopping for dinner at Cricenti’s. Wrote 5 letters of acknowledgement for contributions. The new list has come in + the total is almost $3100.00 which is heartwarming. Went to the College Sport Shop + paid my bill + went to see Mary Haddad about the Gold Bond stamp center. We’ve picked out a good looking transistor radio. Co + Russell + [crossed out word] played the Pogues for the tournament + they won 6-0-6-1. Daddy watched. We had open sandwiches + salad in front of the TV set as the Red Sox – Angels were playing. Went back to Cricenti’s as Co + Russell could come for dinner. Made stuffed ham slices – Rushing in + out between innings. Anthony came to work at 4:30 – and we had a rather desultory session until 5:45. The game was won by the Red Sox 12-11 or something like it + 12 pitchers were used by the two teams. Newcomb called up as he’d been watching it too. Daddy kept saying he was exhausted by it + I think he was. We had dinner about 7:15 or so. Very good – all cleaned up in no time. Daddy went out to sit under the elm. Russell went with him with coffee. Co + I played Spite and Malice. Russell put some more name plates on pictures. I provided the evenings excitement by locking myself in the bathroom. The door sticks + daddy had to give it a mighty kick. Hil + Jim came over. Daddy went to bed. Co stayed on when the others left + we talked + played cards + I lost $1.25. Bed late.